A really expensive lesson

I'm really suck at planning. Why can't I just endure another week?

I really shouldn't had set my last day of work as 24th!!! Coz this week I only work 4 days! If I continue to work till end of month, I could have get my last week of pay and the allowance!!! Which is a 4 digits amount!

Stupiak right?

Instead, I encashed my leave for that pitiful $100 plus.

I'm an idiot!

Stupid stupid stupid.

Spring cleaning 3 days are enough, what for do I need 10 days!!!

Roar.

Something that cheered me up a little, heh... Guy no. 3!!! Apparently, there is another shirtless guy!!!

Another one to the collection!

yes, my hand is at the waist again. he asked me to!!!

then came his hands... 

just eat lah, ha ha! this one very onz!

Now I just need Esther's cutie to complete a set of three.... I regretted not taking with the ang mohs!

Merry X'mas!!!

I said: "Dear Santa, pls send him to my bedroom on Xmas. I will prepare a big sock. Thank you very muchie."

This was the conversation I had with Miss Gwee when I posted this picture, that I wanted him for Xmas.

And on Xmas Eve, which I was wearing my reindeer ears shopping around in Orchard, we paid a visit to Abercrombie & Fitch again, since Miss Gwee had never been there before. Of course, I wouldn't let a chance like this slip! I was there on Fri but couldn't take one as there were far too many people!!!

Santa did not send him to my bedroom, but send him on duty again on Sat at A&F!

And it's the same guy again! Can see that I'm very happy. LOL.

Damn you Eteract

I joined Eteract full of hopes.

The first guy who messaged me is my own friend welcoming to the community. -_-|||

The second guy is an American is his 50s. -_____-!!! And seriously I suspect he's fake!

The third guy was a British, younger and totally different from my criteria!!! @____@ Fine... he's dark skin.

The fourth guy was a man in his 40s and told me he's a crane man and has immense wealth. You think you rich big deal ah? And he said he like fat women, as said in his profile. Fuck you, I hate pple say I fat.

The fifth guy is Chinese-Malay 27 year old guy. Finally something's looking good. But he looked nerdy and reminded me of the bespectacled pervert ex-bf of my friend, and something just so wrong about him lah.

Shit.... Seemed like I'm really picky... But I'm not looking for someone like the A&F hotties!!! Like this one below... haiz....

I gauge his waist wrongly, hence the hands on the arms. -_-|||

 I seemed to attract the wrong guys, why???!!!???

I'm a VIP

Had my palm read by a master on Friday, at Clarke Quay. Just gonna summarize what he said to me, in point forms. These are what I remembered.

1)Before he started my report, he told not to be angry with whatever he said. Then the first thing he spoke was, I'm very sexy. Men knows it... Hmm... U say I sexy while I was wearing jeans and sweater, how to be angry??!!?? :P
2)I'm always misunderstood by people
3) I have a tai tai life, although when I'm old, I 劳碌命. So contradicting, when I asked him, he replied, play mahjong also work mah.
4) I have one of those trident line, he told me is trade secret when I asked for it's meaning. So I googled it, it means I have be happy, wealthy and healthy. He also mentioned my palm lines are VIP lines, so I am a VIP in the future.
5) I will make my mark.
6) 27, 32 and 35 are the ages where I will have major changes: married, migrate, change job. Score one for 27.
7) I will either be very petty, or can't give birth. Okie... this is a bit depressing.
8) I'm a detailed person. And in a way true, coz I asked the ages of major changes, happen in lunar age or solar age. He pek chek replied,"see u r so detailed! It makes no diff"
 9) I'm a born therapist, and I like to help people with their trouble. Kaypo that is. But I can't help myself.
10) 1,5,7 are my lucky numbers and light blue is my lucky color.
11) I have to avoid water, e.g. puddle of water. Weird
12) I'm a good writer, or good talker. And no secret is safe with me, coz I'm loud mouth.
13) I have to marry someone who is like me, like a twin. No woodblock for me, coz I like to talk! So my other must also like to talk and siao on!
14) I appear gungho and happy-go-lucky, but I'm actually timid, and pessimistic.
15) 越老越好命
16）Avoid carbs, might get high blood when I'm older. -_-|||
17) I don't like to study, I study for the sake of study... >_<
18)...
 Update when I remember more details. That's a lot stuff for 10 mins.

SCMS 2011

I still can't believe I completed a 21km marathon!!! The adrenalin is still flowing!!! So much that I registered for 3 marathons that night! lol!

Anyway, the route for 21km was very interesting!!! So many slopes!!! Really taking my life siah... anyway, when we were in USS, we were greeted by their mascots! And when I saw Puss-in-boots, I quickly ran to take a picture with him!!! And because Shuhua couldn't operate my phone, I had to ran 3 times to him before finally one decent photo!!!

This was taken by Stacie.

The good one taken!

So, I took 4 hrs to complete 21km, not exactly my ideal timing, I had aimed for 3.5 hrs... apparently, I'm still not mentally well trained yet... must push myself harder next time!

There were a few times I felt I could go on, but I just didn't want to, I also dunno why. Maybe it's the heat, maybe it's the energy drain. In fact, after many cups of 100plus, I felt like my energy was recharged!!!

Nvm, I have 3 marathons to redeem this 遗憾. =)

I'm really blessed

I really do think I'm super blessed.

I had for months, trying to wriggle out of my current situation, that is, my tough job. I ashamed to say, I really can't take the technical load, and furthermore, I really feared the standby work.

I kept wanting to find a job before I get started on standby, and my prayers was answered. It was really a wish came through.

My friend Jensen recommended me this job, not only was the job scope something I was used to doing years ago, they could match my current pay! That was really blessing!!!

I wonder if the people upstairs had anything to do with this... coz recently, while my whole family was in Hatyai, the huat cake was mysteriously cleaned up! It was supposed to be there for a year, hence a lot of ash fell on it.

I must really pray harder now...

从韩国到合艾，我旅途畅快!!!

Omg, what a traveling month, kinda feel how a jet-setter is!!! Got to say, I love it!!!

At Korea, we travelled on our own and I'm really impressed with their subway stations. It's freaking big!!!  I didn't feel this awesomeness when I was in Taiwan. Somehow, their trains system felt very similar, like they got the trains from same vendor.

And their food is so delicious everywhere! Except for a restaurant opened by a celebrity with the initial J.C. Total waste of money.

Even their road stalls tasted very good.  Damn, missed their kimchi.

Hatyai trip was my virgin trip to Thailand. We went to a lot of places to pray, had Thai massage, which was shiokingly painful and shopping!! I also watched the ah kua show which I placed too much hope and ended up disappointed. They looked so glamorous on stage, altho some lipsynced really badly, a few really made an effort to put up the best show. Once show was over, a lot of them, especially those who danced and lip-synced badly but super pretty, were out to grab our money. Little left of any self-respect what a true performer should have. Only one truly bowed and shook hands without showing the money face.

The real main aim was the shopping!!! I bought 2 bags and freaking 4 pairs of shoes. No more place to store them liao. Gotta 乾坤大挪移 the stuff  and 横扫千军 the old items! Really have to be firm and throw away old thing.

I also got really suay, bitter by bees during the praying trip and had diarrhea on the last day. Face was so pale and body was so weak. Jia and Min had to let me rest. So we went Sizzlers and I really slept, on the chair just like that.

I hoped whatever bad things stayed in Hatyai and have a smoother days ahead.

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I miss Korea already~~~

The weather, the food, the cute guys!

想你， 心是那么的痛。

I'm back to square one...

This is a good thing, after 3 months of sheer hard work, I lost 6kgs and that brought me back to my lightest since 13yo, 74!!! You all had no idea how pleased I was and how much more determined I am to shake 4 more kgs off by end of year!

My face is sharper, my pants are looser, even my feet is getting slimmer! I had a great sense of satisfaction when I pulled my belt, seeing the marks shifted in more the right every month! Shiok to the max!

I'm so in love with my body right now, but I know I can do better!

While in Korea I can't really jog, it is a good time for my body to relax a bit before making final dashes towards 21km in Dec!!!!

30", here I come!!!

爱干净是美德，超洁癖是特意功能!

It dawned on me when I was vacuuming the floor. Being clean, anybody and everybody can do it, but to be OCD in cleanliness, it's definitely a superpower, coz only few gets it and it's sometimes awe-inspriring or awe-irritating.

This is my super power, coz I know no one will ever thought of cleaning the floor in this way: Vacuum, mop, and then use magic-cleaner to test for squeakiness and to trap any flyaway dust. It's something I enjoy doing, and recently, exercising had gave me an energy boost and I'm starting to clean the house again. Hadn't been doing coz I was always tired after work. Now I even washed the dishes for my sis which I used to hate coz I felt that one should be responsible for their used dishes. And I'll wash the sink, clear the rubbish and wipe the table. Isn't this saving people's (trouble)?

Now that I'm back at housework, the happiest is my mum la!

It's been a long time

Met up with Shennon and Hanxiang last night. What a reunion, the last time I saw them was ten years ago! A lot had definitely changed, like both of them are married, their hair length are swapped, hx is the one with the longest hair between us now, and we also lost our baby fats.

The things that remained unchanged is our personalities, our youthful looks and our craps. Lol. It was fun to reminisce our fun JC life...

Catch up soon babes!!!

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I have a free gym instructor

I have really helpful friends! A guy was giving me tips on how to slim down my frame, train my stamina and reduce the size of my carrot legs!!!

To slim down frame: Circuit training. Dash 100m, rest 1 min (cool down), and dash 100m again. Repeat 4 times (That is 800m)

To train stamina and expand lungs for more air intake: breathe in through nose twice quickly and let it out through mouth.

To reduce my carrot legs: Need to apply a certain cream to convert the muscle to fat, and do leg raising exercise. Need more info on this and I'll update soon.

I believe this will work coz he used to be a trainer!!! Yeah! Free consultation!!!

Every km is a revelation

I believed it was my virgin 3.8km. The last long run was only one round that's all. Now I managed to pass the 3km milestone!!!

 The 1st km, it was a breeze for me now, as I anticipated the ache.

 By the 2nd km, I was trying to keep my breathing constant and make sure I don't pant too much. That way, I could really focus on my pace. My trick to keep myself breathing constantly was to breath in thru my mouth, and breathe out thru my nose. I could gulp more air this way.

 When I reached the 3rd km, I told myself, the ache won't go away even if I stopped, so I just pushed myself to jog even more. I already reached my goal distance, but I want to run more. So I kept jogging, keeping at constant pace, until I reached the other entrance of Yishnn Park. By then, all the aches were like part of myself, and I could run jog further. However, i decided to stop, so that there's room for improvement. I don't to demoralise myself in the next run should I unable to attain the achieved record.

I am just so happy now, I love exercise!!!

Yen is out

I don't mean the Japanese Yen, I meant my brow artist, Yen Yen had left Benefit @ Tangs. The lady who did my brow has good skills too, but when it comes to attentiveness, Yen is still better.

I hope she had left for some place better!

Paramore!!!

What I can say, I'm a convert!

I can imagine myself kickboxing to your high beat songs!

More updates to come! It's late, time to sleep!

Help!

That's the scream of my legs, back and arms. The Mega Combat is definitely one event I'm so gonna join again and again! It's so fun to do a mass workout with so many people!

The instructors were so energetic, and instructions were very clear, even a 70-yr old could follow! Because they try to do mirror image for the first timers, but I used to follow the same side, hence I was on diff sides with the rest most of the time. It wasn't until when they shout "Right" then I realised I was on the wrong side.

It was my first time joining Mega Combat, but I knew the kickboxing routine quite well, so it was quite similar except for the Taichi part, which got me really blur lah. Just any how water melon cut and catch my breathe at the same time.

I definitely going back again!

Denise Keller and the Manhunt winners joined us too, and seriously, the Manhunt winners were to pacify the ladies, coz 90% of the participants were ladies! Denise was the eye candy for the guys lor...

The emcee is cute looking too, but I forgot his name and I lost the brochure, oh well... [update: his name is Paul Foster].

Even before I start the combat, I was already half tired out by rushing from True Fitness to The Body Shop Sale and back to True Fitness to store my things. The walk itself was already 15 mins and I only had an hour. But it was good buy! Although I was still shocked at the amount. I thought it was going to be less then $80 lor. =)

Next is to train for my 21 km!!!

A healthy start!

I finally embarked on a jogging plan! So far, I've run 3 times and I am clocking more distance. It may not be much, but for someone who hasn't been moving much, I think it is a good start! If I be hard to myself, I think I will give up more easily.

As for now, I'm not focusing so much on my weight loss, but rather how much distancxe I can cover. I'm training for my 21km, so stamina is my utmost concern now. Losing weight is a bonus, although now I try to cut down my carbo to aid a little, hee hee. Still sticking to the 3 don'ts tho, 'cept that I broke the no carbo rule. It's too difficult! I have cravings during my period and I ate more than usual! So instead of depriving myself, I decided to input a little carbo during breakfast and lunch, rather than starving myself from it. Contradicting? Yes, but I think it's the best idea for now.

Anyway, when I jogged last week, with my colleague at Yishun Stadium, I ran like 3 rounds and then I gave up and started walking.so a total of 2.4km took me 30mins. -_-|||

Then on Wed, I went jogging with Min, and we covered Yishun Park. For once, I managed to pass the 4th corner before I stopped at the main entrance and started walking back. it also took me 30 mins, but this time round, the distance was a little bit more, think I ran 2km and walked 1km. Much better than the Yishun Stadium!

And today, I ran past the big drain before I stopped! That's like running for 2.4km straight! But if it was really 2.4km NAPFA run, I will fail the test coz my timing was 18 mins. Still, it was an improvement! And I even managed to drag myself to the exercise corner and did some sit-ups.

So, in conclusion, I'm definitely improving in baby steps!

Customer Service

So, as usual, I went shopping, with an ex colleague. I dropped by my favourite Topshop, the outlet at Knightsbridge, where I met the warmest SA I ever had.

After she directed me to my changing room, she just popped this sentence, "U very sexy, like me" with the matching action of showing off her body. I was amused, thought she was just being funny, u know, coz both of us were bah bah, altho I think she was sexier.

When I came out of the changing, room, she gave me a hug. I was seriously appalled and amused and happy lah.  It was not a tactic to make me feel good so that I would buy anything, coz I already decided to buy the tank top after trying. She just felt really warm hearted.

This got me thinking. While most of us repelled at the ideas of foreigners infiltrating our job industries, but then, even if a Singaporean was a SA, I doubt she will be that friendly, you know. Probably only polite and attend to my requests, We do need such people to boom up our retail industry, which in turn boomed the tourism industry. They are such a joy to be with and seriously, they are super patient!

BTW, by foreigners, I mean those who do not had Mandarin as their first language.

I might look for Rosemarie when I'm back there again. =)

Clean slate

It's 1st of August.

My status as a permanent employee officially started and it's also the start to a healthier me.

I've been bullshitting many years that I want to lose weight, yes I did, but not for long, I will put back twice whatever I lost in a quarter of the time I took to lose. This time round, I'm not going to focus so much on my weight, the number, but more of the quality things I'm going to do to make myself healthy.

A strategic plan is needed to keep me focus and I'm going to do it in baby steps. Every month, I'm going to change 3 bad habits that would jeopardize my aim of of healthy me. For this month, these are the three things I'm not going to do:

1. Drink sweetened liquid which includes my daily needed caffeine; I'm going to stick to plain water.
2. Take the lift; Come on, 50 flights of steps a day ain't that difficult. 
3. No intake of fruits; I'm so going to be an apple murderer, like Jamie.

My aim is to squeeze into the 34 inches skirt I bought donkey years ago. I'm not going to set any deadline, I'm just going to let things run freely. Goals had never been my ally, so why not I try something else.

Still, it would be nice to check on my weight once a while, a little lost is a little encouragement right? But I'm not going to dump my weight here, but my BMI is 32. =(

A lot of work to be done to reach the healthy 25!

My Mum is a Game Addict

A few years back, when we already had computer for some years. I decided to let my mum get over her fear of PC by installing her favorite game Mahjong. It worked good, way too good when she hurled nasty words at me coz she thought I had uninstall her Mahjong game. She thought I thought she was addicted so I wanted to wean her off it. BTW, my little sis who was 3 at that time had been the one to uninstall and  I became the scapegoat.

Fast forward 6 years, now the craze is all pads, tablets and touch screen phones. Mum, once again, got addicted to some foodie games, thanks to my little sis once again. And once her addiction starts, she will find her way and mean to get hold of iPhone or iPad. Thank goodness my phone was Android, so it was spared from her. Jia was quite shocked when my mum just grab the iPad out of her bag and started playing games.

Well, kudos to her for being such a hype mum. =)

Harry Potter 7 Part 2 & Transformers

Watched these 2 movies today.

HP7-2 had not even ended and I already started my water tap. I had no idea why. Probably sad that I'll never see these 3 as Harry, Ron and Hermione again. Talking about Hermione, I wonder how many baby girls had been named this since the start of HP craze...

HP7-2 is not the best of HP that I loved, but I must say, it was at least so much better than HP 5 6 7-1. HP 5 & 6 too droning, HP7-1 focus too much on love. HP7-2 did focus a little too much on Hermione's neckline, especially when she was changed back to herself, but wearing Bellatrix's clothes. Was it necessary? I think there was even a close shot of it...

Still, it was great that there was not too much weird pauses, altho my sister disagree. These 2 hours were on the last few chapters of the HP7, so I think they did put in a lot more details and stick more to the original story, leaving just the important highlights which string everything together. But the breaking of the wand? WTF, it's magical! It's super powerful! I think they should do the part where Harry buried it with Dumbledore!

Whatever... It's still not so bad overall, and I might want to catch it in 3D. =)

Transfomers 3, well, for female lead, I still like Mikaela, the very garang lady. They tried to portray Carly as a little more heroine when she talked to Megatron, but seriously, I was like duhz. Megatron is not human, why would he be so bothered by what she said about he being a bitch to Sentinel Prime? As usual, Michael Bay can't resist close-up shots on her B & B (Buxom & Bum). As a VS model, she has pretty figure, but not the normal sexy pretty face. Well, she got Bay's attention and bam, she's in the movie. I missed biker chick Mikaela. That's the name I will name my future daughter, or my bitch (I mean she-dog), see which comes first. Ha ha.

As for the story, like all Transformers series, it was a chop chop hurry hurry BOMB! The links aren't very strong, but clear enough to explain everything. It was better than T2, where I caught no heads or tails. I can't even remember the story, except it was about the matrix. It was my repeat coz I fell asleep the first time I saw it, not because it was boring but because I was too tired from GE run + shopping. Heh...

Miss Kim and I had a date to watch HP7-2 in 3D, and she commented that the movies we watched together were always repeats. Well, good shows worth twice the viewing. =)

HP7-2 is going to be my favorite movie of this year coz... it was my first movie without my specs!!! heh heh heh. Not lame okay...

I'm an old fart

A few weeks ago, during my journey back home in 812, a bunch of sec school kids boarded the bus. They should be in sec. 3. Anyway, like all kids, they were fooling around. Then, there was this one kid who used his thick textbook and hit it on a girl, his friend. The rest of them just laughed and the victim also laughed it off.

I contemplated about telling both of them this was wrong. I mean, it was literally to hit on girls! I don't see my peers doing that when I was their age! Wait, did they or did not? I can't remember, but still, if my male classmates were to use a textbook to whack me, I would have whack them ten times back.

But then, who am I to tell them that this was not the way or blah blah blah. To them, I'll probably be the weird lady who told them what to do. Kids in those age don't take instructions anyway.

Considering the generation gap, I'm just an old fart.

Makeup Brushes for Sale: M.A.C and Bobbi Brown

Check them out here.

http://prelove-haven.blogspot.com/2011/07/makeup-brushes-for-sale-mac-and-bobbi.html

I'm half angel, half devil

I finally went for a 5km run today! Three cheers for myself! Jia was so not used to me wearing sleeveless in public. As a matter of fact, I had to get used to such obscenity too, especially my running pants, so short, and I had to keep pulling it to prevent them from dropping. And this is what Jia commented about me wearing sleeveless.

Jia: So not used to seeing you wearing sleeveless, I mean, I didn't expect your arm to be so big!
Me: -_-|||, I know ah, that's why I always say your arm is not big compare to mine.
Jia: Heh...

*Pause...

Me: So, what exactly do I look wearing sleeveless? Obscene is it?
Jia: No, you look so tough, and so muscular, I wouldn't dare to provoke you lor.
Me: True, even when I just rolled my sleeves, I also looked very fit, that my team lead thought I went body building or soemthing. So not match my face hor?
Jia: *nod head*, yah....
Me: Haiz, seems like I have 天使般的脸孔， 魔鬼般的身材 (Angelic face, devilish  figure) also.
Jia: -_____-|||||

PoSSE

That's the name of the one week course I'm currently attending. The trainer is a Vancouver native, but he looked more like he came from Santa Land. He's very round and jolly looking, like Santa Claus in suits.

Looks aside, he has very impressive background and he is the President in the company, well he founded it. And this company collaborated with some of the world's big companies, so, don't play play with him.

As much as I was super impressed with his knowledge and felt very honored to be trained by him, but I just could not quite keep awake most of the time, especially on Mon and Tue when Aunt Flow came.

I was so embarrassed to talk to him coz he obviously caught me sleeping everyday and when I bumped into him on my way back, I just said a quick goodbye and double my speed.

My first impression onto other people usually very bad, and my teammates probably think I was anti social coz I refused to open my mouth and contribute anything. Not I didn't want, I was just too lethargic to keep up with the coursework. By Wed, I was more or less back to normal mode and probably appeared a little bit too enthusiastic.

But then, the people in my team all very quiet, super ISTJ lah. There this guy who gave a lot of explanation but refused to do the presentation. But who am I to judge him when I'm worse than him. The course is very difficult and it took me a while before I understand the exercise.

How to pass test tmr?

Damn you Stomach Flu

I couldn't remember the last time I vomited so badly. In a time span of 20 minutes, I vomited 3 times and pretty much emptied my lunch. Bo pian, 2 more hours before knocking off, I called and asked if I need to take MC if I leave home now.

The ride home was pretty awful, I had to hold my urge to vomit in the cab. The moment I alighted, I wanted to vomit, but my first thought was, "Not here, no tissue". So I endured for another 5 mins while I made my way up home. Thankfully, the cab driver stopped just nice in front of the lift, so I didn't have to walk that much.

The moment I opened the door, I merlioned into the plastic bag which I stashed for a "just in case I can't make it to the toilet". My mum and little sister watched me like I'm a soap opera or something, barely just asking why I was home so early. Then my mum quipped after I was done with vomiting, "Ur daddy says this is San Kang Hur". I think it meant sick or something.

I got my little sister to throw the waste for me while I just concussed on the floor. It took me an hour or so before I wriggled myself up to my bed, and wrapped myself into my snuggly blanket. My room was like a oven and yet I felt cold.

The upside of vomiting and eating less was I could give my stomach a break and burned so fat.

A Chinese Ghost Story? A Story That Waste Money more likely...

I'm an easy going person, and I never think so much about a movie during or after watching it. The last show that I condemned was Twilight, coz the actors and actresses have looks no skills.

The new Chinese Ghost Story was just a little bit of winning the loser title from Twilight. It provided a few funny moments, which made not as bad as Twilight.

There were some movies parts knocked off, Pirates of the Caribbean: the villages had tree barks growing all over them. Looked too much like those Davy Jones' crew. Then there were the two snake demons, Green snake and White snake. Of all things, why green and white snakes? CGI not bad, but the fox a bit too fake lah. The female lead as Xiao Qian, innocent looking, but not sexy enough. Ning Cai Chen, what an idiot. Yan Chi Xia, handsome but love moron.

Some parts that I find it ridiculous. If they could be killed easily with the swords, why set up a formation to kill Xiao Qian? Yan Chi Xia asked Ning Cai Chen to free him (he was tied up) so that he could break the formation and save Xiao Qian. The reason he told Ning Cai Chen was only he knew how to break the formation. At this point, I tot there was a need to babble some abracadabra. Then came this side kick who switched off the formation, like a switch. What the? Then it turned out this sidekick was to babble some stuffs, to knock some sense into Yan Chi Xia, for not saving people but saving the demon instead. Blah blah.

It was so boring that I yawned throughout, although I'm not sure whether it was because it was 1am already and I barely had 4 hrs sleep the whole of last week. At the last part, I cried, not because the story was touching but out of boredom.

They tried to bring some signature parts from the old classic, but it looked kinda ridiculous. The song still nice, but totally not matched for this show. The saving grace was some lame jokes and the chief of the village totally stole the scenes with his act seh attitude and his tortoise. I had fun counting the parts which Green Snake had surgery on. Boobs definitely, lips plumped, nose maybe, eyes not sure coz too much eye makeup.

The had to name drop Leslie Cheung at the end during credit. For wat?

Totally not worth the money though, spend it on the old classic dvd instead.

I need clear and specific instructions

Been feeling moody, especially now that I am cleared to go sites. It is suppose to be a happy news, coz going to sites = money. I felt worse, because there's nothing I know if I really go and support them. For the past 2 years in my job, I felt that I am wasting time. Not just because they wasted my time with all these clearance issues, I myself had no idea what to do either.The 2 years could have been utilized well but I did not.

It seemed like ever since I went into this project, all I heard was how scary this project was, I don't know if that indirectly affect my decisions to a lot of things. Heck, my life seemed to go downhill since getting into university. Lousy grade, lousy work, lousy personality.

I know I decide my life myself, but I can't help but feeling all my decisions are lousy. Wouldn't it be better if someone decides for me and so if anything goes wrong, I don't have to shoulder that mistake. Mistakes are a huge burden. They say, "Learn from mistakes", but I never seem to able to. I made more mistakes. Even deciding which queue to join could prove to me how lousy my decision was. I always ended with either the slow auntie or a fussy buyer.

I sort of falling into places now at work, now with my clearance all passed and team lead throwing things for me to do, I should feel valued. Yet, all I could think of was, "No, don't ask me! I dunno!!!" I already have lesser workload and yet I can't churn anything out right.

I used to think I'm good in a lot of things, now I think I sucked at a lot of things. I took MC today not only because I was really sick and weak (damn the doc who scolded me for MC-ing), it was to avoid what I haver to face at work. I seriously don't wanna go to work, not because the work is freaking a lot, it isn't compared to my other colleagues, but because I don't want to do as I dunno if I could do it. Yeap, I'm a runner, I run away from harsh reality.

My last job, I marched right in with overloaded confidence of I know my stuffs, only to be banished to the lowliest level of a lousy support engineer whose technical skills aren't even as good as a newbie. I'm not sure if that really roasted whatever self esteem I may left in myself, I walked right into another job with the mentality I'm lousy and I can't learn tough stuffs coz I have a simple brain which work one way direction only.

"Don't just say ok ok to, prove to me you know how to do. I know you can one" was what my team lead messaged me after he requested to see the tasks by this week. He threw to me like months ago. Saying OK is so much easier than telling him "I not sure if I can complete". At least I will try to complete it since I have a deadline.

I hated going to work during my last job, and now for me is I really dreaded going to work. I felt so useless over there. I don't seem to picking up anything they taught me. And I don't know why. I can't face my boss and team lead without feeling a sense of guilt. I know they covered a lot of shit for me and I truly want to return the favor by showing my capability, but all I did was like making them regret for covering me up. The 3 Ps that my ex boss said I lacked is like finally showing out in full glory. Lack passion, lack pro activeness and very passive.

My post is suppose to be super emo, but it seemed like a joke after reading it. Maybe my life is on e big huge joke, with so many mistakes. Once in a while, I will google "suicidal thoughts/depression during PMS" just to ensure that I am normal to think like that during moody period. I guess, only when I really die, then will I know what cause it. It's either accident or depression.

I'm losing the zest for life.

I finally signed up a 5km fun run!!!

One small step to a healthier lifestyle.

Time to start training. =)

The stupidest sentence I ever said (adding to the hall of shame)

I was buying my favourite mango cake at Mangoesity yesterday, and the friendly lady, whom I presume is the boss, was striking up a conversation with me. She only asked, "So how did you find our cakes?"

And this is what I replied:

Wah, very nice, super nice. After I ate, I had withdrawal symptoms leh, has a craving for more gelee. It's almost like I had snuffed heroine or something. Very nice! BTW, don't start opening more outlets, k? Coz standards will drop!

Who in the right mind tells a boss who has huge plans for their business not to start more shops?

Me lah!

I am so pissed with myself.

For buying my camera far too early!!!

As a matter of fact, I knew the IT show would have a better offer, but little did I expect them to throw in so many freebies!!!

Sucks sucks sucks.

When I bought my camera in Jan, I received a free camera case, a battery, an 8GB card and free panoramic prints, for $399, $50 cheaper than the usual price.

And the package for the IT show threw in these other than the above mentioned: Sony tripod, another 8GB card and a DVD player, all for $329.

Yeap, you read it right, a free DVD player. And so much cheaper!

I should have know, you know. All along, I had always chose to purchase such gadgets during IT show, I really had no inkling why I made such an impulse buy. Maybe perhaps at that time, I thought the offer was very good already.

Argh...

Update: I forgot to mention, but they also included a screen protector which I bought for $15. -_-|||

I fell in love today...

Mango Gelee Cake from Mangoesity

This is by far the BEST mango cake I ever ate!!!
On my first bite, I thought, wow, this mango cake has very nice texture!
On my second bite, the mango slices was filling all my sensory nerves!
On my third bite, I had this warm and fuzzy feeling rushing through my body!
I finished on my fourth mouthful and lamented why did I eat so quickly!?!?!
I was high for the next 5 minutes.
My last 10 minutes was having withdrawal symptoms, craving for the cake.

I was telling my colleagues, that after eating the cake, I had a 幸福的感觉 (feeling of happiness), and when I looked the box later, the tagline was "The sense of bliss"!!!! How true!!! I swear I didn't notice the tagline before I said I was feeling happiness. For a moment I suspected they drugged the cake lor, making me craved for it. During my "five high", I was repeating to my colleagues how nice it was, and how happy I was feeling. Then one of them started to replay my inner struggle: The cake is obviously very nice that's why you didn't share. Or maybe you had wanted to share but you change your mind after the first bite.

Spot on, and I was giggling out of guiltiness.

Apparently, another colleague's gf had eaten before and was addicted like me. And she was pretty pissed off that he had neither brought her back there to eat the cake or buy the cake for her. See, the power of a delicious cake.

My very descriptive colleague said I was mourning for the loss of cake during the time I was having withdrawal symptoms. Ha ha, very funny. And as much as I tried to act cool afterwards, my face already betrayed my feelings: I was ecstatic about the cake.

Oh man... I just wished for a tiny piece now.

I had so much thoughts on my way to work...

and all I could remember was the cut queue incident.

And soggy biscuit.

I'm not going to forgive my colleagues who told me this really disgusting jackass prank among guys and now I have this horrible image stuck in my head.

He further elaborated a female version with red tomato pasta, before lunch. -_-||| and we saw a lady clearing the pad bins coming out from the lift. Double horror!

Argh... disgusting!

Sometimes, all we need to do is just open our bloody mouths and speak up!

When I was in secondary school, my Chinese teacher said that we Singaporeans were all rich people, coz we all have gold, inside our mouths. It was a sarcasm, because we were so afraid to speak up, as if gold would drop out if we opened the mouth.

Many times, I would hold all the grudges and complaints inside me, and blast them at some 3rd party like my colleagues. Cases such as people jumping queue, people bumping you, all we could was grudging the stupid fellow and complained to our friends, who would usually ask, "Why didn't you do this this this, that that that?" Why? Because we were afraid the other party would slam us back worse.

There was an occasion where a NSF cut my queue to the bus, you know, the railings in the interchange, he wasn't in it. And all I did was trying to see his name tag and wanted to complain to Mindef's appropriate channel. By the time I reached home, I totally forgot his name and anger was appeased already. However, today, I was feeling plucky. When I noticed that this NSF (not the same one) was about to cut my queue, I quickly raised my right hand to block him, and tell him "Please queue up".

I felt very shiok, and he did wait until he was behind the queue. I realized, many times, we do not have to "suffer in silence". If we are in the right and they are in the wrong, there's nothing to fear. Now I think back about my past, I'm really a wimp.

Not anymore.

四大美女欢聚Ajisen!!!

It's been a long long time since YQ, IV, XL and me met up TOGETHER! It's always either XL can't make it, or YQ got to rush home to her precious boy, or IV too busy to meet us. Today we finally had dinner together and discuss about XL's wedding plans! So exciting!

Other than IV got hitched to a new squeeze, nothing else is new, and at least now we agree to meet up once a month! Now we left TN who has yet to meet us frequently.

Parting with them is always 舍不得 (reluctant). Hope to see them soon!

Do Zo

I admit, I am a suaku/suahuan/suatao/sua whatever, I've never been to such classy dining place before. If it wasn't for PZ, I wouldn't have know that such a dining place exist. Do Zo is a Japanese fusion casual dining restaurant. It doesn't overwhelm your brain with too much food choices, still, I had a hard time choosing my 7 courses because I want to eat them all! It is almost like a fine dining already, with 3 sets of forks and knives and a spoon. I was really shicked at the cutlery, until PZ told me to work my way in, and I was more or less not so afraid of picking the wrong one. =P

It was very dim with soft yellow lights only, but because the main interior color was purple, so it had a grand feel. It was so quiet that I almost whispered during my conversation with PZ. That was also why my photos looked dark, as I switched off the flash, not wanting to spoil the atmosphere they created.

Yeap, a lot of couples there, perfect dating place. I want to go back again!!!

The left side of the munu

The right side

A sourish drink to clear our palate. It's yummy!

Appetizer of the day, this one is default. The scallop is huge!!!

Beef Tataki. It's raw and  it's nice! Perfect with the Parmesan Cheese. 

PZ's crab salad, very fresh!

Escargot, the shell is for decoration purpose. The meat is in the dish.

My foie gras chawanmushi! Love love love it! It has a 10cent size truffle!

Crab bisque, ah, smooth down the throat!

PZ's beef soup.

My lamb shank!!! I love the sauce! The flavor is not too salty.

PZ's hotstone beef. Super tender.

Raspberry mousse. Heavenly match with the ko ko krunch biscuits.

Grapefruit Glory. Aids digestion. The drink is so fresh!

French Cream Cheese Cake. PZ said the flavour was bursting inside her mouth, which I totally agree. Texture is somewhat between a normal cake and the Jap Cheese Cake. Nice!

Psychological Test: Types of Personalities from your dream.

I thought this is interesting. It was from today's MyPaper. As you read the question, you try to visualize before you look at the choices, more accurate,

For question 7, I chose B, and it fitted exactly what I was feeling a few days ago: "I felt like I belong to nowhere, or I never felt like I belong to anywhere".
What it says was I'm lonely and lack sense of belonging, but as long as I keep my doors open, I'll meet someone good. It was referring to relationship, but the sense of belonging part really hit the nail. The rest of the question also spot-on on my current situation. I won't say much, but this test is pretty good, at least for me.

Have a try!

Rollercoaster mood

My mood went through a bloody hell of a roller coaster ride today.

I was grouchy when I went to work due to lack of sleep (3 -4 hrs).

I was pissed off that I missed the usual bus by 2 mins and the next bus came 30mins later.

I was elated when I knew my colleague was late too and I could hitch a ride to the office.

I was unsure when my team lead asked me about my work progress.

I was regretful when I informed my team lead I am not continuing the contract.

I was sad when my team lead tried so hard to persuade me but I insisted on my decision.

I was happy when I finally ended work on half day.

I was excited to see my friend and chatted non stop.

I was irritated when my friend had to talk about this other friend whom she hardly knew and trying to get info out of me.

I was rejoicing when I got a good bargain while shopping.

I was delighted when I shared good food with the friend.

I was joyful when I reached home.

I was shocked when I saw my boss's boss email about my mistake on the claim ID.

I was depressed after reading the email and pondered about myself and the future.

I felt, I belong to nowhere or I never belong to anywhere.

Where's my future? I don't see it.

Interesting

This is my horoscope for today by MyPaper.

Hello, it happened last Saturday!!!

The posts for the next one month most likely will be raves and raves and raves.

Okie... My excitement is slowing diminishing...

It's the 5th day since I watched the Chippendales. I don't feel that oxytocinic rush that washed through my body each time I view that wonderful photo. =)

Monday I was still very hyped and was telling my male colleagues how wonderful they are. Bods, smile, bods, achievements, bods, yah bods mostly. ;P

Tuesday I was able to remain calm and composed until someone mentioned that army boys very fit (we saw a troop of army boys in CV rambling down the hills when we came back from lunch), I coudn't resist and mentioned they are far from fit and started talking about Chippendales again. Ha ha.

Today, it was more of a discussion about them. Like they aren't just pretty men, some have their own business, some just want to travel around the world while they are still young. They all knew they can't possibly be a Chippendale till they are 80, although some fans don't mind I guess. Ha ha.

I didn't really interact with them during the after party, all I cared was the photos. I think I was really a bit sex-struck, ha ha. Actually, I'm not good at holding at conversation with strangers and them being Chippendales, I felt like I was awestruck most of the time, and the fear of feeling stupid if I mouth any words out.

Then I felt the envy when I saw girls (hot and sexy too) talking to them like old friends. "I think it is to engage them in a conversation and able to hold the conversation", Miss Gwee said. She had a good one with Kyle though. =) Right?

Then maybe because I didn't get to interact with them, so I cyber stalk them. Ha ha. I dished every news, video, photos I could get, especially those on David Abrams. Heh heh. Most news actually gave each of them  a very detailed profile and from there, I seemed to know them better and better. Okie, I sound scary by now, like I'm really stalking them, actually it is more of going back to my youthful days when I like Jimmy Lin and cut all news on him. Just now I'm now after more mature theme and internet makes everything really easy. Eh hem.

Back to them and their jobs, no job is easy but I think they had an interesting one, no doubt. If women were to do such kind  revue, most of the time it ended up with dirty old man watching them lewdly. Being men doesn't mean they enjoyed all the touching crazy women does while they are performing. They flirted on stage doesn't mean they want to get down under the ladies after the show. After I watched the Omy news, I realized they are just doing their jobs as a performer and full stop. They are fulfilling every women's desire and fantasy om stage, with the dance moves and great bods.

When I was waiting for my turn to take picture with them, with the 2 $10 bills in my hand, the guy taking the money just said Thank you and grabbed it while chewing some gum. Wah... either I felt so cheap or that guy made it feel really cheap. I think I understand how it feels to pay for sex, roughly. Thankfully, they were so nice and friendly and nothing too fliratatious, and were so obliging to all sorts of requests, like a lady requested them to carry her. After all those dancing, I think I just want a nap. Well, maybe their biceps were just warming up during the show. I very shy, so all I did was touch the chest. Although now I wished I turned the other side. All in all, it's like taking photos with the USS mascots, albeit better looking.

Okie, kinda losing track of my main point. I think Chippendales is so popular, not only because they are so good looking and oozes sex appeal left right up down and front. You never know how many ladies who attended that night, probably yearned the kind of affection they gave for years, which they probably never got it or their significant other is losing it. One of my colleague said, they are trained to make you feel good, make you feel like you are their girlfriend, now I digest it, I think it makes them sound like gigolo. Well, Deuce Bigalow did a good job without having any sex ah! And yes I admit, I love that photo so much because it totally looks like we are a couple! Minus the ugly double chin. -_-||| Inner desperado showing out again. Ha ha.

Maybe that is why I am so crazy about them (or one in particular), because they are so near yet so far. 越得不到越想要 you know. Still, I'm logical enough to make this just a crazy fan thing, for maybe a month?

Do you know most of them all are still single? ^_^


Omy News

I especially like the last part, I think Kris really gets across the point that they are really just performers.

Chippendales - Most Wanted Tour 2011

Miss Gwee had lobangs to catch Chippendales - Most Wanted Tour 2011, how could I miss it? Too bad that we couldn't film in the ballroom, hence no hot and saucy videos for you ladies to see, but hey, at least I have some photos! =)

I really enjoyed myself that night, letting myself go, but not as much as the other ladies who were there. Seriously, I wonder whether it was the Chippendales seducing us or the other way round. So many ladies dressed so sexily that they could make a Female Chips on their own, Ke ke ke.

About the show, basically, it was just dance and skin. They danced and they took off their clothes. And because they spent so much time training, their bods are fantastic! At some parts of the show, they randomly grabbed ladies on stage and gyrated in front of their faces. Wah! And they really flirted and were really obliging when some cougars dashed right in front of them and grabbed their asses and danced. I applauded their courage. I want to touch also leh, but I shy and seems to be a bit rude if I just grabbed their butts. Lol. Maybe next time I ask politely.

And so it seems that the last show really had more perks than those who caught it first. We could go to Skybar located at the Hotel Michael, where the Chippendales would mingle with us. When we reached there, all the other ladies already chopped a good seat. We arrived a bit late as we went to make RWS membership cards. Free one mah...so why not make it? Anyway, the boys weren't there yet, and I almost mistook the expats there as the Chippendales. LOL. All ang mo mah! Anyway, the expats lost their preying ground when the Chippendales arrived. Ha ha.

Enough words, let's see the photos!!!

Miss Gwee taking a chio chio pic. =) Too bad about the bar behind. =(

My turn for chio chio pic. 

Miss Gwee makes an effort to take one without the bar. Yeah! Thanks!

My rum and her Vodka. Both with coke!

How can 2 pretty gals don't camwhore right?

She makes a better camwhore shot. 

This is Kris Davis. Yes, I cyberstalked them and checked out their names and profiles. =) He's a FengShui believer. 

I can't find this guy's name. We had a name for him anyway. =)

How can a hot guy like be so shy??? He hardly wrapped his hands around me, unlike the other hotness. No, my waist is not that thick hor!

Kyle Efthemes. New Chip on the Block. =) So can't google much info on him.

Miss Gwee said he gives a sunshine vibe, like those Californians. Eh, he's from West Virginia. 

Staceyy Robinson. Tall and cool guy. I nicked him Chocolate and guess what his profile says? "Makes a mean chocolate chip cookie" Har? 1 not enough lah.

The singer of Chippendale. He doesn't strip. At one point I thought he was and ended up he just took off his belt and whipped. Chey. Ha ha. Anyway, he look really disgruntled on the paid photo.

Do you know height is a requirement to be a Chippendale? ;) So he just a singer only, nothing more.

OMG! OMG! OMG! David Abrams! Firstly, he's an Aries, secondly, he has nice voice, thirdly, he's smart!!! He scored 1500 on his SAT's! And I read somewhere that he's super shy!!! OMG, he so scored on my checklist! My eye candy was another guy and David here just blew me away after I took this photo. OMG!!! He's so goody good shoes cute with abs!

I had this naggy thought that this guy might be a wrong number, as in he's not a Chip. But on one of the photos where they went to Phillipines, he was in there. So heng ah, didn't anyhow take photos with Ang Mo. Can't find his name too.

We thought this poster was good until Miss Gwee told me which her fren told her that we missed a gigantic one.

Still, it looks good.

Testing out without flash.

The guy I'm touching has hair more beautiful than mine. His name is Kevin Cornell and he joined Chip because his mother  "forced" him to. LOL.

Hot hot hot!

They showed a lot of butts on stage. 

Miss Gwee posing with all of them.

She wants to be as sexy as them too. Hot!

Poster also must touch some more.

Saw this really cute car! What a night, hot guys hot car! =)

The paid photo. He asked me to touch his chest so I obliged. =D At that point, my eyes only had that Black Tank. I didn't even realized Mr. Abrams is beside me. :P So cute!!! I can died a happy lady. =)

Of all the photos, I like David Abrams' (obvious reason) followed by Kyle Efthemes'. Because they rest their heads on mine!!! This makes the photos so much more interesting!!! I could die smiling.