I think this person really did a thorough research, and a witty one too. Here.
几乎每个水瓶座的心底都有着一段刻骨铭心人间记忆，一个永远无法忘记的背影。
那也许只是极其短暂的两情相悦，只是一种单恋，或只是一种只存在于虚幻空间。
一切看起来是那么平静，那么和谐。
没有惊天动地，没有海誓山盟，没有花前月下，没有浪漫，没有誓言，没有温度。水瓶座的理智和冷漠，注定了任何感情永无燃点。
水瓶座不容易喜欢上一个人。有人说水瓶座对伴侣的要求太高，其实并非这样，水瓶座注重的是感觉。只是那么轻描淡写的一眼，那个人已经吸引了水瓶的所有注意力，从此目光便无法转移。
用一秒钟爱上一个人，然后再付出一生去忘记，水瓶座就是这样的试验品。
但几乎所有的水瓶都会否认在自己的身上发生一见钟情，因为一向自视清高，承认爱上一个人这钟事似乎是在侮辱自己的智商。
更多的时候是因为，连自己都没发现已经爱上。水瓶座很多时候对于感情反应非常迟钝，迟钝到每次都是最后的知情者。有时容易出现弄不清自己的感觉，不清楚自己想做什么，觉得迷惘。
在对方没有非常明确地表示感情时会退怯，觉得爱情是两厢情愿，不想勉强对方。
显得很被动，忽冷忽热，犹豫不决，极其矛盾。在没有完全确定前，决不轻易付出感情，因为怕失去。也许是缺乏安全感，也许是对自己的保护，也可以算作是一种自私。
一般水瓶座的好朋友都是经过很长世间的考察的，不仅仅是几年，而是十几年。一旦被水瓶座当作好朋友的，会赴汤蹈火掏心掏肺。
在公车上，街边，商场，水瓶老是认错人。在茫茫人海中，始终在寻找一个熟悉的身影，直到产生幻觉。
这一刻，水瓶座突然很想痛哭流涕，因为突然发现自己几近疯狂的爱上一个人，失去了理智，失去了自我。这种突如其来的感觉，很恐惧，很无助。
水瓶座不喜欢这种感觉，因为不知该如何面对。要让水瓶座主动去追逐，是件异常困难的事，在水瓶座的世界里无法承受拒绝，就是这么脆弱，无论表面上看来是多么的坚强。
水瓶座在人前总是一幅无忧无虑没心没肝的样子，不想别人看见自己的悲伤，那样会有不安全的感觉，总是在无人的地方暗自落泪。
算了，还是放在心里吧。既不用尴尬的表白然后遭到拒绝，又不会相爱容易相处难的惨烈分手。这样很好，没人看出来，不至于太没面子。可以继续貌似潇洒。
但是，不同了。尽管水瓶座装着多么不在乎，看都不看一眼。可是对方说的每句话都从耳朵进去，没见出来。对方提的任何过分的要求，水瓶座统统照单全收精心尽力，
决对不会有半个不字。完全成为一个爱情的奴隶，脸上还装酷无表情，整个死要面子活受罪。
这种情况下，如果对方使点阴谋诡计，刻意疏远避而不见或是视而不见，电话不接或是哼哈敷衍等等，水瓶会给整疯了，开始会想是什么自己地方做错了，说错话 了，然后拉下面子主动讨好试探。不用多，碰壁两次，水瓶座就会有自知之明了，不会再去想是为什么会这样，也不想知道了。心里会想，原来是对方讨厌自己，不 想见到自己。明白之后，就是绝对的安静了。
这还没完，过了一段日子。对方如果突然又改变态度，水瓶座竟然能既往不咎问也不问，殷勤依旧，完全没有尊严可谈。只要能和对方开心的在一起，过去不重要，未来也不重要，面子不重要，金钱不重要，时间不重要，自己也不重要。
天平失衡，感情重重的压在心底，自己却飘在了半空。太在乎对方，迷失了自我，幸福也变得虚无。
自己都不爱，谁还会珍惜。
水瓶座一旦付出，便是彻底，不可收回。
感情投入的越多越是伤的重。
最擅长的是难为自己。不想对方难过，只好让自己难过。总是认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，把自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。不知道，受伤的其实是自己，只是不知道如何表现出来。
爱，这个字对水瓶座来说，太沉重珍贵了，无法用语言诠释。一旦说出口，犹如远古的文物，被发掘出土暴露于空气中，变得面目全非，失去本来的价值。
所以，不轻易说。
只需一次，水瓶座便把一生的精力耗尽，只因执著，便落得伤痕累累。那段感情如强酸腐蚀着那颗麻木的心，穿了一个洞，再也无法弥补。时间是世界上最有力的矬子，把空洞的毛边渐渐抚平，不再搁人。每当寒风吹过，犹闻隐约凄凉的萧萧声，似挽歌。
只需一次，水瓶座便不再幻想，于是狠狠将自己摔碎，拒绝熔化拼凑。因为怕熔了记忆，怕熔了那个远远的背影，怕熔了自己千年的期盼。
之后，水瓶座依然谈笑风生，依然开朗豁达，继续着一段接一段的新感情，重复着一切，因为无法承受寂寞。
人们都说水瓶花心，见一个爱一个，水瓶座会哈哈一笑，说“哪有？冤啊！”。其实心里在滴着血，脸上却得笑的灿烂，安慰自己“我是谁啊！哪会那么弱呢！”
有人说水瓶座太冷酷太自私，自以为了不起。可是谁又了解，水瓶座的心，容量很小，只能有一个，且不具修改性。除了那个人，其他所有自动归为一种程序。
因为无法虚伪，所以甜言蜜语都吝啬给予。因为天真，所以至死之前仍在等待。因为没有勇气，所以眼睁睁放手真爱无能为力。
当看到一个瓶子在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，请千万不要被迷惑，水瓶总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与悲伤。其实并不像看到的那么快乐，同样的，也不像看到的那么悲伤。只是悲伤时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当水瓶快乐时，悲伤又不肯轻易放过。
只有真正懂得水瓶座的人，才能看见眼底那一缕似有似无的哀伤，才能明白是什么让水瓶如此的义无反顾，是什么让水瓶变得如此忽冷忽热捉摸不定，才能体会水瓶的坚强只是竭力掩饰的脆弱。
星相上说，水瓶座往往不被所爱的人珍惜。我想，是为什么呢？也许答案就在心中，只是水瓶座的本性不愿承认而已。
水瓶座除了需要一个深爱自己包容一切的人以外，还需要一个心理医生。
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Feeling Awful
I felt really awful yesterday, not about my interview, which I think I didn't make it lah, but about my appearance. I didn't have time to put on decent makeup to cover my tiredness, puffy eys and dull complexion before the interview, but that's not the problem. I couldn't pinpoint which area I felt really awful, but I just tot I looked really really really ugly, like a troll. Big, heavy and grunt when I talked.
After a whole day of scrutinizing, I thought shaping my eyebrow might do me some good, and unwilling to get cheated again, I DIY.
The result was surprisingly neat, and the brows are almost on equal heights this time! My previous virgin attempt on shaping my eyebrows ended looking like I was giving the one brow raise look 24/7.
Now I just need a new haircut to make myself feel sexy.
After a whole day of scrutinizing, I thought shaping my eyebrow might do me some good, and unwilling to get cheated again, I DIY.
The result was surprisingly neat, and the brows are almost on equal heights this time! My previous virgin attempt on shaping my eyebrows ended looking like I was giving the one brow raise look 24/7.
Now I just need a new haircut to make myself feel sexy.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Still Jobless
Aiyoyo... Seems like many of my friends had found a job... and I'm still hanging around like a teenage kid.
When I told my mum I am going for interview, she would say, "Aiyah, just go and try lah!" in a tone so irritating. I don't know how to put it, but she seemed to have this hardcoded idea that I am choosy about my first job. I was just telling her that this Wednesday I'm going for a session, and the moment I mentioned it was a recruit agency, she start rattling off, "Just go and try, don't try how you know you don't like the job" blah blah blah the tone she used when I do something wrong.
Oh yeah, I won't forget how she snide at my poly first job, "你那个那里算， 只是你玩玩而已。" Yah right, I slogged like a cow for an ITE pay, really play play for fun only. I didn't even say a word that shows my discontentment about a that interview!!! It's not my fault if 8 of out 10 companies doesn't want me and which made me a slacking parasite.
Bleahz.... How? So difficutlt to squeeze into IT with half IT degree and a useless CCNA.
When I told my mum I am going for interview, she would say, "Aiyah, just go and try lah!" in a tone so irritating. I don't know how to put it, but she seemed to have this hardcoded idea that I am choosy about my first job. I was just telling her that this Wednesday I'm going for a session, and the moment I mentioned it was a recruit agency, she start rattling off, "Just go and try, don't try how you know you don't like the job" blah blah blah the tone she used when I do something wrong.
Oh yeah, I won't forget how she snide at my poly first job, "你那个那里算， 只是你玩玩而已。" Yah right, I slogged like a cow for an ITE pay, really play play for fun only. I didn't even say a word that shows my discontentment about a that interview!!! It's not my fault if 8 of out 10 companies doesn't want me and which made me a slacking parasite.
Bleahz.... How? So difficutlt to squeeze into IT with half IT degree and a useless CCNA.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Lucky!
Other than the spitting drama, I still feel that my life is very lucky!
I am a big and fat procrastinator, I always pushed my things to do at the very last minute, thinking that it will spur me more to complete more things. Of course, the time is just enough to achieve average results, and I would wished for one more day to give the stuff a boost!
For example, the current project I am doing now for my ex IA coy, it had been 2 months already, by right it should be long completed, but by left, I dragged,my boss also dragged, hence, I am still 10% away from finishing line.
Today was supposed to complete everything, but it was nowhere near the finished product, so I thought I just went away and submit, and made adjustments spontaneously. Who knows, I was supposed to reach at 1pm, but I left house at 12.45pm, hence, when my boss called and informed me that he wouldn't be free to go through the project with me, deep down I was happy, coz I got another day to finish! Probably the spit did me some good here?
Even though there were many times I told myself, finish earlier, more time for adjustments, still I always dragged till 2 days before then I do my stuffs. Tsk tsk tsk... Just like a habit, it takes time to mold this habit out... which I am still molding. I truly look upon people who finish their stuffs, no bring over. I truly should set a good example to Jamie, then she won't be always using my slang: "Later then I do lah!"
I am a big and fat procrastinator, I always pushed my things to do at the very last minute, thinking that it will spur me more to complete more things. Of course, the time is just enough to achieve average results, and I would wished for one more day to give the stuff a boost!
For example, the current project I am doing now for my ex IA coy, it had been 2 months already, by right it should be long completed, but by left, I dragged,my boss also dragged, hence, I am still 10% away from finishing line.
Today was supposed to complete everything, but it was nowhere near the finished product, so I thought I just went away and submit, and made adjustments spontaneously. Who knows, I was supposed to reach at 1pm, but I left house at 12.45pm, hence, when my boss called and informed me that he wouldn't be free to go through the project with me, deep down I was happy, coz I got another day to finish! Probably the spit did me some good here?
Even though there were many times I told myself, finish earlier, more time for adjustments, still I always dragged till 2 days before then I do my stuffs. Tsk tsk tsk... Just like a habit, it takes time to mold this habit out... which I am still molding. I truly look upon people who finish their stuffs, no bring over. I truly should set a good example to Jamie, then she won't be always using my slang: "Later then I do lah!"
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Drama Ma Ma
My recent life is so peaceful that I hope for some drama to happen, like: falling in love? Ha ha... Indeed, a drama did happen, but not the one I wished for. Someone spitted onto my head while I was on the up-riding escalator in Northpoint!!! TA MA DE... It was so so so traumatizing leh! Imagine you saw something whitish fell down, and it thudded on your head. Your reflex reaction was to touch that thing and it was slimy. And when you saw what was on your fingers to be saliva with bubbles somemore, could you not freak out?
I rushed to the toilet immediately to wash my hair man, damn gross!
I could not pinpoint who was that disgusting fella, but still, my mind automatically thought of some of the unwelcome people which our govt love to employ. Seriously, S'pore uncles, like my dad may spit, but they spit by the roadside or drain. This fella seriously have no sense of hygiene lor! Wah lau, spit in a shopping centre!
Jia was telling me how murky the public swimming pool was in Yishun, and it even tasted salty (coz she accidentally swallowed a few mouthfuls)! I don't recall the water was salty back when I was in primary school. This is very horrifying, that our gracious society is being polluted by people whose own country who doesn't educate its people manners!
I have smell body odor so bad that it was as if they were walking rubbish collection center, albeit unwillingly though. I have seen enough of them in my hostel who don't bath, but merely wiped themselves with a tub of water only.
Seriously, we should really enforce rules to those people who wished to come to our country. Like in Holland, foreigners who wanted to stay in the country, be in long term or short term, they were required to do a compulsory questionnaire to show how much they understand Holland's living lifestyle and culture. We ought to do the same too! Like, where do you spit if you can't find a toilet? Which side should you stick to in a walkway? How should one behave in a crowded place?
I have noticed how rude people were to me in the service area and mostly were people who are not local. No, I don't mean Malaysians, they are similar to us and in fact, their service were more sincere!
Oh man, a spit of saliva trigger so much... I also very suay lah! When I was in secondary school, I kenna someone' vomit too (I think the person was so sick and nauseous that he/she just vomited over the wall in the third floor), but luckily it fell onto my bag. Anyway, saliva on my head felt worse than vomit on my bag!
NABEH!!!! Hmpf!
I rushed to the toilet immediately to wash my hair man, damn gross!
I could not pinpoint who was that disgusting fella, but still, my mind automatically thought of some of the unwelcome people which our govt love to employ. Seriously, S'pore uncles, like my dad may spit, but they spit by the roadside or drain. This fella seriously have no sense of hygiene lor! Wah lau, spit in a shopping centre!
Jia was telling me how murky the public swimming pool was in Yishun, and it even tasted salty (coz she accidentally swallowed a few mouthfuls)! I don't recall the water was salty back when I was in primary school. This is very horrifying, that our gracious society is being polluted by people whose own country who doesn't educate its people manners!
I have smell body odor so bad that it was as if they were walking rubbish collection center, albeit unwillingly though. I have seen enough of them in my hostel who don't bath, but merely wiped themselves with a tub of water only.
Seriously, we should really enforce rules to those people who wished to come to our country. Like in Holland, foreigners who wanted to stay in the country, be in long term or short term, they were required to do a compulsory questionnaire to show how much they understand Holland's living lifestyle and culture. We ought to do the same too! Like, where do you spit if you can't find a toilet? Which side should you stick to in a walkway? How should one behave in a crowded place?
I have noticed how rude people were to me in the service area and mostly were people who are not local. No, I don't mean Malaysians, they are similar to us and in fact, their service were more sincere!
Oh man, a spit of saliva trigger so much... I also very suay lah! When I was in secondary school, I kenna someone' vomit too (I think the person was so sick and nauseous that he/she just vomited over the wall in the third floor), but luckily it fell onto my bag. Anyway, saliva on my head felt worse than vomit on my bag!
NABEH!!!! Hmpf!
Monday, June 16, 2008
I must be mad!
I actually submitted an application for XX's Search for BFF. Too full nothing to do... I watched her vid after I submitted which she listed out her criteria... which I don't make it in many areas... like cannot be preachy, not vain, must be bummer (???) etc...
Hah.. better concentrate on my job search!
Hah.. better concentrate on my job search!
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Fatal Attraction
Min recently adopted a new nasty habit: waking me up by ranting non-stop for 2 to 3 hours, which could start as early as 8am!
Gosh, bless my snores!
And recently, her habit took an unorthodox way of waking me, that was depriving me of all slumber necessities such as switching off the fan in my humid room; taking away my pillows and bolster until none left.
Yesterday was the ultimate: instead of clutching all the huggies with her less than a metre hands, she joined me in the bed, with me as HER bed! Bleahz...
Just another week to endure before she goes back to school!
Gosh, bless my snores!
And recently, her habit took an unorthodox way of waking me, that was depriving me of all slumber necessities such as switching off the fan in my humid room; taking away my pillows and bolster until none left.
Yesterday was the ultimate: instead of clutching all the huggies with her less than a metre hands, she joined me in the bed, with me as HER bed! Bleahz...
Just another week to endure before she goes back to school!
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Change
Changed my flooble chatbox to cbox's one coz flooble was blocked by my CA's Parental Control. The ironic part about this CA was it was supposed to control Jamie's games, but it didn't seem to have any effect on it leh! She still could play most of her games but most of my blog feeds were blocked. So unfair.
We actually had lobsters for supper, which we thought they were crayfishes. A simple fix would do, boil them, scrap the meat out, mix with mayo and black pepper: Nice. =)
I had so many dumplings for breakfast that I'm sore at the thought of eating it again, but nonetheless, I was seduced to finish the remaining ghee dumplings just now. Burp!
My life is so sedentary siah... I'm storing all the fats already... and not many of the useless things passed out leh... wah... even my blog is like getting boring.
We actually had lobsters for supper, which we thought they were crayfishes. A simple fix would do, boil them, scrap the meat out, mix with mayo and black pepper: Nice. =)
I had so many dumplings for breakfast that I'm sore at the thought of eating it again, but nonetheless, I was seduced to finish the remaining ghee dumplings just now. Burp!
My life is so sedentary siah... I'm storing all the fats already... and not many of the useless things passed out leh... wah... even my blog is like getting boring.
Monday, June 09, 2008
Mahjong Luck Running Out... Meow...
Went for a game of mahjong today, no luck + no skill = lose money. I played with Belle and her uni frens, who were all highly skilled, bleahz... Kinda lost my concentration coz my energy was sapped up after trying to counter-guard them, and ended up trying to win fast to minimize loss. But they are very nice chaps, coz 2 of them were tag-team, so while one is playing, the other one will guide us on our playings, =).
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While I was out shopping with Kim yesterday, we came across a rather fat orange tabby cat, sitting solemnly against the pillar.
Kim: Is that cat pregnant?
Me: I don't know, ask it?
Kim: Ha ha ha, how to ask?
Me: Meow1! Meow2! Meow1?
Kim: No, you should sound sad mah coz...
Me: (without letting Kim finished her sentence) Like this?
Me and Kim: Meow~~~~~ (low pitch)
We two are so crappy, ha ha. It was always fulfilling (as in my self discovery) to go out with her, coz she was able to give me insights that I do not see, and she won't put me down in an ugly way, but rather, knock me out of my nonsensical rubbish by telling me methodically which makes perfect sense. She was always right, like when I am far too nice to a certain person who did not deserve it at all, letting myself being squeezed unconditionally. We talked about so much things, which made her appalled at my way of thoughts, and hence made me ashamed of my own childish thinkings. Must change must change...
True friends give real judgment of you, whether you like to hear or not. However, I don't know if I passed as a true friend coz I am so afraid to annoy people, yet I do annoy people unknowingly, this is so perplex! Perhaps, being truthful and being annoying is a thin line between to tread on...
So... A better me, a better world???
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Jia was telling me how young the directors are nowadays, hence they must be very competent, to be director of certain division etc. However, I told her somehow "directors" are overrated nowadays, anyone can be a director, like the hair director neighborhood hair saloon who charge us $5 (in the past) for a haircut. Anyway, I bought the Saturday's The ST to look for jobs, and while flipping through the thick "Recruit" section, I saw a casket company looking for:
Funeral Director: must possess a class 3 driving license. I assume this "Director"drives the van.
and at the same column, Funeral advisors: must be physically fit.
Interesting how a job title could beautify a job, hor?
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While I was out shopping with Kim yesterday, we came across a rather fat orange tabby cat, sitting solemnly against the pillar.
Kim: Is that cat pregnant?
Me: I don't know, ask it?
Kim: Ha ha ha, how to ask?
Me: Meow1! Meow2! Meow1?
Kim: No, you should sound sad mah coz...
Me: (without letting Kim finished her sentence) Like this?
Me and Kim: Meow~~~~~ (low pitch)
We two are so crappy, ha ha. It was always fulfilling (as in my self discovery) to go out with her, coz she was able to give me insights that I do not see, and she won't put me down in an ugly way, but rather, knock me out of my nonsensical rubbish by telling me methodically which makes perfect sense. She was always right, like when I am far too nice to a certain person who did not deserve it at all, letting myself being squeezed unconditionally. We talked about so much things, which made her appalled at my way of thoughts, and hence made me ashamed of my own childish thinkings. Must change must change...
True friends give real judgment of you, whether you like to hear or not. However, I don't know if I passed as a true friend coz I am so afraid to annoy people, yet I do annoy people unknowingly, this is so perplex! Perhaps, being truthful and being annoying is a thin line between to tread on...
So... A better me, a better world???
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Jia was telling me how young the directors are nowadays, hence they must be very competent, to be director of certain division etc. However, I told her somehow "directors" are overrated nowadays, anyone can be a director, like the hair director neighborhood hair saloon who charge us $5 (in the past) for a haircut. Anyway, I bought the Saturday's The ST to look for jobs, and while flipping through the thick "Recruit" section, I saw a casket company looking for:
Funeral Director: must possess a class 3 driving license. I assume this "Director"drives the van.
and at the same column, Funeral advisors: must be physically fit.
Interesting how a job title could beautify a job, hor?
Friday, June 06, 2008
Bak Zhang Pte Unlimited
Today Mum, Ah Yi and I wrapped another few kgs of dumplings, oh gosh, there goes my weight-loss!
I am improving! My dumplings' shapes are getting better now. =)
I am improving! My dumplings' shapes are getting better now. =)
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Hooray! No more NTU!!!
I passed! I PASSED ALL! YEAH!!!
With a significant chiam tou somemore!!! Another A- bagged, for my design module! =) I was so exhilarated to see the A- that I jumped for joy, literally! Floor almost cracked under my gradually increasing and already very heavy weight. Coz tat A- was the least to expect, when 50% was project based and we channeled 90% of our energy in recreating from samples. =P I was so afraid that marker will see through the plan... phew... I'm definitely not proud of this but under that circumstance, it's bo pian...
Engineers and society was also least expected, a B, I did crap my paper through, leaving shitty remarks on the history of Singapore and industrialization etc. Probably this proved something, crapping does come in handy sometime.
FYP needless to say... 400 lines of codes only, what to expect except a B. I brought it upon myself one lor... Serves me right...
Computer Security was a B-, hmm... can't remember the questions, but then it was the last paper and I have ample time to study... and then I think I spent 3 days... so ok, B- is good enough.
Web Services I got a B+, wah ha ha, another grade which I don't know how it came about. I was only confident about the first question on history of internet, which I wrote non-stop for 20 minutes. The last 2 questions was really anyhow whacked, coz it was on XML which I have to write codes and I didn't memorize all, only remembering selectively some parts... I think the lecturer gave me sympathy marks for wasting ink on top of those correct codes, which somehow tabulated to a B+ which he probably didn't understand why too. He might have counted again and again until he was reluctant to give me the grade. =D
Database was the one I feared most, I only had 1 day to study and there was a lot of materials which I miraculously failed to see. Prior before the start of exams, I also scrapped some tutorials only and I had thought I wouldn't have make it through. Still I got a C+, can't complain.
Together with my previous Cs and Ds in the first 3 semesters and a lot of Bs in the last semester, I got a 3rd class, still, mai hiam ka zui, I had passed!
It is not the best when people looked at it (the grades and class), but it's the best at how I looked at it, so I am happy.
Less expectations bring more happiness.
Less desires lead to self-satisfaction.
With a significant chiam tou somemore!!! Another A- bagged, for my design module! =) I was so exhilarated to see the A- that I jumped for joy, literally! Floor almost cracked under my gradually increasing and already very heavy weight. Coz tat A- was the least to expect, when 50% was project based and we channeled 90% of our energy in recreating from samples. =P I was so afraid that marker will see through the plan... phew... I'm definitely not proud of this but under that circumstance, it's bo pian...
Engineers and society was also least expected, a B, I did crap my paper through, leaving shitty remarks on the history of Singapore and industrialization etc. Probably this proved something, crapping does come in handy sometime.
FYP needless to say... 400 lines of codes only, what to expect except a B. I brought it upon myself one lor... Serves me right...
Computer Security was a B-, hmm... can't remember the questions, but then it was the last paper and I have ample time to study... and then I think I spent 3 days... so ok, B- is good enough.
Web Services I got a B+, wah ha ha, another grade which I don't know how it came about. I was only confident about the first question on history of internet, which I wrote non-stop for 20 minutes. The last 2 questions was really anyhow whacked, coz it was on XML which I have to write codes and I didn't memorize all, only remembering selectively some parts... I think the lecturer gave me sympathy marks for wasting ink on top of those correct codes, which somehow tabulated to a B+ which he probably didn't understand why too. He might have counted again and again until he was reluctant to give me the grade. =D
Database was the one I feared most, I only had 1 day to study and there was a lot of materials which I miraculously failed to see. Prior before the start of exams, I also scrapped some tutorials only and I had thought I wouldn't have make it through. Still I got a C+, can't complain.
Together with my previous Cs and Ds in the first 3 semesters and a lot of Bs in the last semester, I got a 3rd class, still, mai hiam ka zui, I had passed!
It is not the best when people looked at it (the grades and class), but it's the best at how I looked at it, so I am happy.
Less expectations bring more happiness.
Less desires lead to self-satisfaction.
Sunday, June 01, 2008
粽子飘香
每年的六月，家里一定会包粽子， 而且一包就用了七、八公斤的糯米， 大概四公斤的猪肉， 虾米和板栗， 炸油葱。 听起来好像很恐怖，因为材料食粮很多，但大部份是要送给人的， 所以留给自己吃的也剩不多， 差不多20粒左右。
包了娘惹粽，*吉粽和肉粽，娘亲还要再包多几公斤的肉粽， 因为上一批的肉粽没有板栗， 所以这次要加进去。嗨。。。我的肚子很为难叻。。。嘴巴馋但又怕吃肥自己。。。看来需要林小妹来督促我去跑步减肥了。
*吉粽: Ghee dumpling, not too sure what it is called in Mandarin, so I named it 吉粽, which is a very very auspicious name too.
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Seriously, seriously, I think I have a very big screw loose in me. I wrote a false number down in a financial planner's survey form and I actually told him that was a false number 30 minutes later. I am too trusting to people... The illogical side of me thought it was perfectly logical to inform him that little error I made, not only that, but I honestly told him that I thought he was just going to talk (indirectly meaning "pester") for a few minutes. -_-|||
Wah, is there someone else as honest as me? As truthful as me? As insensitive as I could be. Wah ha ha.
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Monday was a busy day for me: I had to clear my hostel room and return key, get my book back from Mr. Calvin, print and zap my CV, transcripts and certs, meet my poly-family. I lugged a big bag stuffed with my hostel stuffs, carrying them the whole day, no wonder I was so tired.
Well, I thought meeting Mr. Calvin would be the highlight of the day, coz it was weeks since we had our common exam paper. And I thought I would once again showed all my nervousness and with the 小鹿乱撞 feeling in front of him. Nervous made me lose myself sometimes, ha, and talking incoherently would be one of the symptoms. Thankfully, I was able to string my words into sentences and I stopped mentioning HRM for once. Miss Ng was all chio mi mi when she saw me talking to Mr. Calvin... so indiscreet. LOL. But then, after the infatuation period, comes the dreadful uncertainty period. In infatuation, I believe everything I feel, believing that he was the one. Now, I am feeling so insecure in many ways and I don't know how to put it. There were friends who encouraged me to make the first move, but hell no way I could, I just don't feel good doing it coz I think I screwed up everything (considering past instances). I rather remain as friends as it is now, and don't think too much.
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As from time to time, Ivy was the story teller again, she never failed to amaze with her stories. Can't wait to earn my first pot of money and go holiday with them! Just the girls!
包了娘惹粽，*吉粽和肉粽，娘亲还要再包多几公斤的肉粽， 因为上一批的肉粽没有板栗， 所以这次要加进去。嗨。。。我的肚子很为难叻。。。嘴巴馋但又怕吃肥自己。。。看来需要林小妹来督促我去跑步减肥了。
*吉粽: Ghee dumpling, not too sure what it is called in Mandarin, so I named it 吉粽, which is a very very auspicious name too.
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Seriously, seriously, I think I have a very big screw loose in me. I wrote a false number down in a financial planner's survey form and I actually told him that was a false number 30 minutes later. I am too trusting to people... The illogical side of me thought it was perfectly logical to inform him that little error I made, not only that, but I honestly told him that I thought he was just going to talk (indirectly meaning "pester") for a few minutes. -_-|||
Wah, is there someone else as honest as me? As truthful as me? As insensitive as I could be. Wah ha ha.
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Monday was a busy day for me: I had to clear my hostel room and return key, get my book back from Mr. Calvin, print and zap my CV, transcripts and certs, meet my poly-family. I lugged a big bag stuffed with my hostel stuffs, carrying them the whole day, no wonder I was so tired.
Well, I thought meeting Mr. Calvin would be the highlight of the day, coz it was weeks since we had our common exam paper. And I thought I would once again showed all my nervousness and with the 小鹿乱撞 feeling in front of him. Nervous made me lose myself sometimes, ha, and talking incoherently would be one of the symptoms. Thankfully, I was able to string my words into sentences and I stopped mentioning HRM for once. Miss Ng was all chio mi mi when she saw me talking to Mr. Calvin... so indiscreet. LOL. But then, after the infatuation period, comes the dreadful uncertainty period. In infatuation, I believe everything I feel, believing that he was the one. Now, I am feeling so insecure in many ways and I don't know how to put it. There were friends who encouraged me to make the first move, but hell no way I could, I just don't feel good doing it coz I think I screwed up everything (considering past instances). I rather remain as friends as it is now, and don't think too much.
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As from time to time, Ivy was the story teller again, she never failed to amaze with her stories. Can't wait to earn my first pot of money and go holiday with them! Just the girls!
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