If I have a brother...

I would imagine him to be like TX, who always tease me, verbal bully me and tekan me whenever he could, yet you can't be angry with him for too long because he was just so funny and nice. Very pek chek lor, always kenna his aim and tio suan.

He and Cheng had invited me for a treat, and said I could get anyone I know to join too. So the group yesterday was a little complicated, with half of my DIP group + full strength of my HRM group. Our relationship is like a local area network, where one point is connected to another point internally.

We had dinner at Changing Appetites, I had expected full house, but turned out that there were many free seats. Dunno who choose one, we were seated at this cushion seats which were so low, and bouncy. Very difficult to maneuver. I took my camera with me, but we were all so busy talking that the camera was forgotten.

Manage to catch up with GL whom missed out our last HRM gathering. He did not bad, working at a Norway shipyard company. 3 of us were in gov agencies, 2 in big companies, 1 still studying, and me OOJ soon. With TX and the 2 jokers, BS and Austin, you won't get bored.

We went to play pool after dinner, and I learned how to play, finally! I had refused point blank to learn after a bad one during my poly times, where I just couldn't get the hang of it. Yesterday, it turned to be quite easy, altho I still need more practise in aiming and controlling my strength. Some of them claimed they dunno or not that good, but from what I see, they are being really too humble. TX challenged me, and our game were played for so long until he buay tahan, so he gei siao gei siao by the table, and when I hit, he would push the ball and let them drop in. Ha ha.

As usual, TX laughed at my posture being too stiff. -_-||| and my unexposed cleavage.

But it was really fun, and now I can't wait to try my hand at pool again. My back ache a bit tho.

The only photo I took for them on the upriding escalator. Lousy cam, picture turn out very blur.

My 2 sifus, Janet and Andrew, WC and GL, TX and SK, BS and Austin's mop of hair (I don't know who is who).

We (actually is TX and me) already settled our next outing at WC's condo to play Wii and have BBQ. =D

Yesh!

I've been called down for a technical test!

It's a good start right?

The HR executive very hardworking leh, called me at 8.40pm!

彩虹

Miss Ng once told me seeing a rainbow cheers her a lot, really a lot.
Saw a humongous rainbow today, it's for everybody! Cheer up!

Feminine Bags

If this bag is a woman wearing a bra...

This bag is certainly a naked woman!

Boom! A big bang!

First, my new printer cocked up.

Now, my computer exploded.

What's next? My mobile phone probably.

On MC Again...

Incomplete osmosis process and overload of nutritional values in the body, which lead to the incapability to detect and react to the external factors to start the osmosis.

Meaning, I was too tired to bath last night, plus I ate too full for dinner, and slept like a log, hence couldn't wake up earlier to bath and prepare for work. Hah!

First time on fake MC...

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy V-day everyone!

I'm going on a whirlwind trip to KL with my beloved Miss Ng!

CIAO!

Post BBB+CNY Party: A huge Purplish BANG!

Forgot to thank Tze Khee for the hot pink photo album!

Thanks to you all who made my "21st" birthday party so memorable! Finally uploaded the photos on Facebook, but I have yet to add comments.

Heh heh, the best thing about birthday parties, is PRESENTS! A big haul leh! :P

Thanks to DIP gang & AMKSS Band Gang who gave me the C&K vouchers, I believe I had enough to buy 6 pairs of heels already!

Qiyou gave me CityChain Vouchers, he loves giving vouchers, ha ha. The last time it was The Body Shop one.

I totally love the evening bag Miss Kim bought for me! Got compartments inside, and it's fat and oblong, chio!

NYP Gang bought me a nice coat and an interesting gold chucky necklace from Forever 21, now I know F21 has my size!

Richard himself gave me a pair of Mashimaro slippers, a Bear Bear plastic container with iPOD shuffle stucked inside (took 3 women and 1 man to take it out)! Oh My God! Now I have accompany for jogging! =)

KM and Felix's aromatheraphy speakers, sweet! I can throw the X'mas speakers away already!

SK's fiction story book, right, I said I want Harry Potter! Ha ha, it's a chick flick, so yeah, suit me too. The book's name is so enticing, "A good girl comes undone". Hmm...

Dennis and Audris gave me Taka voucher, yeah, more shopping. And in view of my soon jobless state, it is gonna serve me well.

Ivy gave me an eyeshadow palette, although I mentioned no makeup, but the palette is Chocolate Dream! Not only is the name delicious, so are the colours! Finally got a brown one to play with mode eye look. Hee.

Yanqi sponsored the cake, =) Her hubby sponsored partial cost of the party, coz he gave me an Ang Bao! So touched neh, coz I seldom see him.

Thank you people! I felt like I'm 12 all over again! Was so rejuvenated despite the preparation!

Not forgetting my beloved Mum for preparing the food, naughty Jamie for being the photographer, and nice Godma in helping out! And they sportingly wore purple too! Dad stayed on a little for the phototaking session coz I asked him to. Best. And Jia for being a nice backdrop, and cake cutter, mu ha ha ha. I was so stressed during cake cutting coz Mum was saying, "too flat, too thick, too big". Sounds like me hor, flat face, thick thighs, big body!

Hope you all like the door gifts, is the sweets nice? I haven't get to eat it myself yet.

Stay or Leave?

My boss called me in for a "casual chat" half an hour before knockoff time. We sat in the very meeting room where he interviewed me.

He said he would want me to stay on, coz he doesn't want to waste the effort in grooming me. All the while he talked, I listened.

Even though he said he will try to keep me if he could, but the things he said, made me want to leave even more.

Points I taken note:

• I earn $100 more than colleague on my left (COML) but my performance is not as good as her
• If I were to combine my performance with colleague on my right (COMR), we still not as good as COML
• I am not passionate about my job (I totally agree, it's hard when the table is messy 24/7) but I still do my work!
  
• I am not proactive (I believe I did, but probably too insignificant to COMR who report everything)
• I am not confident (It drained off day by day)
• I am not mature like COML when handling issues (which part?)
  
• I am not as structured or organized as CMOL

He asked me for the reason as to why I am leaving, I can't bring it to say. There were too many factors, and most of them are pointing to the people and things around me.

My boss once said I am not a team player, I tried to micro-manage my teammates' things, knowing what they had done, what issues they were handling. End up? I am not structured or organized. What a joke.

Boss said COMR is good in technical, from what I see, he's good at taichi-ing. I never told my boss what COMR told me when I asked him questions about the machine lying around.

• "Dunno, the Blackberry is on YOUR table" - what the fuck, we share the workspace!
• "I dun deal with windows 2000" - fuck you, it's your job to learn both operating systems!
• "I dunno, I didn't handle it." - seriously, you aren't a team player too!
  

Boss said I made a very sudden decision, where got? He was preampted by COML who helpfully told Boss that I cried because I MIGHT BE RESIGNING!

I would have gave second thoughts about leaving, but the 30 minutes chat seems more like "Why we don't need you" talk. I was fighting to hold back my tears, coz he really made me feel like I am not an asset to the company.

I took 1 minute to think, and I gave my final answer.

The lousy me cried in the toilet for 10 minutes.

I threw in the letter!

I finally threw in the letter, and while online job searching, I did this personal profile and it is extremely accurate!

At a Glance

• Faithful, trustworthy and devoted in long-term relationships.

• Sees people as nice and friendly, not comfortable to wheel and deal.

• A good supporter of others.

• Needs clear and thorough instructions, slow to act when uncertain.

While at Work

Ms Lim is prepared to put in hard work moderately but she may at times prefer to work at her own pace.

Ms Lim is relatively dependable to deliver results on time. She may sometimes be late in meeting deadlines.

Ms Lim generally will persist with work until it is completed but may at times not complete her tasks.

Ms Lim is able to produce work that is moderately high in quality but she may at times be careless.

Ms Lim is generally objective but may at times be emotional.

Although Ms Lim is usually a sympathetic person, she may at times be selective about being involved in the personal problems of people.

Ms Lim is friendly and outgoing when she is with friends although she may at times prefer to be quiet.

Ms Lim is the sort of person who forms long term bonds and attachments. She is faithful, trustworthy, and devoted in such relationships. She tends to be trusting, dedicated and protective towards those she loves. Patriotism and sense of duty is a significant aspect of her character.

Ms Lim is moderately serious about her responsibilities and selectively takes ownership of her work.

Ms Lim is moderately concerned with prestige, rank and reputation.

Ms Lim sees people as friendly, reliable and honest. She is trusting and believes what people say. She tends to be unsuspecting of people.s behaviour and motives. She is uncomfortable when she has to wheel and deal.

A good supporter to the people around her, Ms Lim does not desire to lead or influence people. She is uncomfortable taking charge and does not feel the thrill of challenge in leading others. She prefers to responds rather than initiate. She looks to others to provide direction and does not naturally want to persuade or motivate others to take a certain course of action.

Ms Lim is as keen to explore abstract concepts when the topic appeals to her and she is as interested to discuss theoretical issues as the average person.

Ms Lim puts in effort to plan ahead some of the times. She may at times not be as detailed in her planning.

Ms Lim is generally able to express herself although not to a high degree of eloquence.

Being one who needs clear and thorough instructions before she can proceed on action, Ms Lim resists when conditions are uncertain. She does not adapt easily to changes. Before she embarks on a new project, expect Ms Lim to find out more and probe deeply.

Butterflies come and go...

So funny that whatever I do, things ended up funnily. This is what happened.

"Benjamin Button" is a new show released, surely, seats would be whooped up in seconds, right? So I checked online, J8 has the most seats available. I wanted to book tickets online, but they only accept Visa CC.

I decide to buy the tickets via AXS, and holy shit, they ran out of paper. So no tickets, but money was paid!

Crap, I couldn't concentrate during my Jap lesson, thinking, "Shit, no tickets, do I have to buy another 2 tickets? Later better try another AXS machine."And so I did, after I keyed in the reference number and my mobile in another AXS machine, the display read "Tickets had been printed".

Crap.

I made my way to J8 GV. Thank goodness, the GV manager was able to print my receipt via their system, and henceforth, I had this huge ass A4 size paper as ticket stubs to keep as remembrance.

Anyway, I was 2 hours ahead of the time we suppose to meet, so I chilled myself in the library as I could feel myself getting hot and flustered as each second ticked. Ha, pun!

Made my way to the meeting location 10mins earlier. My heart was bit-bot, bit-bot, bit-bot lor. Then he came. =). Anyway, I totally forgot about the "go in 10mins before the show", and I still happily huhed at the cinema crew who checked the ticket. We wanted to go into the theater at 4.15pm, the show was 4.35pm. See, my brain was too fried by embarrassment to think properly. The cinema crew who checked the stubs looked astonished at the paper, I was thinking who could be more suay than me? Anyway, he politely told us we could only go in 10mins before the show. Ha... paiseh! So we hang around at Poh Kim, finding boring topics to talk, like work. =P Anyway, I started harping about the unfairness in my workplace, totally making the #1 mistake of a bad date: Do not complain about work. Shit, I shall just think of it as a group outing with only 2 of us, so it's not a date.

I had wanted to pay for the tickets this time round, but he had his money out, so I took lor. But I also very extra and told him, "Aiyah, I wanted to treat you this time so that the next time you treat!" He smiled, politely I think. Damn, I should have just refused the money and asked him to treat me next time.

We didn't buy any food or drinks, and thank goodness we didn't, coz I was curbing my burps, swallowing them down to my stomach. Funnily, where did these burps came from? I didn't had a full lunch!

3 hours later, the movie finished, I was just desperate to find the toilet that I didn't preampt him and started making my way out of the theater, he just followed me when he noticed I was leaving. Opps, mistake #2: Ignore the date. Okie, it's offically a group outing.

I forgot about the toilet when we were outside. Anyway, he said he was going to visit a friend in NUH, so I just walked with him till we reached the escalator then we parted, coz he had parked his car in the basement and I was going back by MRT.

One thing he said before leaving, which made my day happy, "我们下次再看。" He may be just being polite, but then, I am still happy. HA~~~ I can smile to myself silly each time I think of it. Heh~~~ Anyway, I secretly think he also paiseh and thoughts were incoherent, coz he said "下次再看", I thought, 再看什么叻？Benjamin Button again? Ha.. Me siao.

Maybe there might not be a next time already, but still, I'm glad I had a made the first step to ask him out. And thanks to Miss Gwee who egged me to do it, else, I still gong gong dai dai, hee hee haa haa about it. Thanks to Miss Ng, who wanted to know what happened eagerly, so I blogged it and release any extra excitement that still running inside me.

Too many unanswered questions, but impossible to list them all down.

My heart is still bit-botting lor.

My mind is running very madly now

A million butterflies are ramming around in my belly, I expect it to multiply by another 1000 tomorrow, and at 4.15pm, I believe my heart will stop palpitating.

Please bless me that my brain is in proper working condition and pray hard that I will not deliver any nonsense verbal rubbish tomorrow.

Gosh! It's a dream come true!

If I ain't dead from too much butterflies in my stomach, I will do an update.

Faithful passengers of FlightSQ047 will know why I am behaving so neurotic.

Shit, I need a 定心丸。

Restart

I had some memories flashback, and can't help but feeling regret at the choices I made for my life...

How I wish I could restart my life like the computer power on/off button.

Am I born like this or I made myself into this?

Would I become a better person if I had been firm with myself?