I gave up driving & blah blah blah

I came to a realization that I can and will never be able to learn how to drive, after wasting near 4k on lessons, renewal and practical tests. My reaction is always slower, I always forgot to do safety check, I can't gauge,  how to drive like that? The confidence I showed during practice never did shine during tests. Sometimes I think the instructors were just patronizing me. I mean, if I were that ok, how come I not ok during TP? I was already so calm in my last test, yet there were still so many mistakes the tester penalized me.

为何？？？

The older I am, the lousier I get, the stupider I became.

I should just die at 30 years old. I can't imagine what become of me at 40. Oh, old single maid is the best visualization I have.

A disgusting new flash: I think I just detox a 10cm worm out of my body. Damn, what have I been eating? And no wonder I've been feeling so easily hungry lately.

I have a verdict for my fat waist

It's PMS bloat.

I had just endured a 2 month's worth of PMS.

This explained my recent :

1. Tiredness. I was always tired in the office that my PL bought me Vit. B complex. Touched ~~~
2. Crankiness. Scold Jamie Nag Jamie Irritate Jamie
3. Neatness & Cleanliness OCD: Dust Wipe Organize

I felt like I'm finally back to myself, back to my old body. For the past 2 months, all my thoughts were I'm fat, I ate too much, I exercise too less, and I hardly did my bowels. Considering that I only been to my kickboxing twice (I missed 1 lesson), did jogging and stair-climbing 3 weeks ago, I seriously didn't think that aids my weight loss. Granted, I walked a bit more lately than usual, choosing to climb tat irritating half hill than to take a taxi (partially also due to the over spending lah), it still doesn't work out that 2 inches.

The tap is finally turned on today and I really felt like the bloat is gone. Furthermore for the past 1 week plus, I've been very flatulent and did no. 2 several times a day (solid somemore!) which are my cues to the time of the month.

Maybe, the bloat is a collaboration between the 2 mentioned actions above and they were on strike for 2 months.

女人难当啊！

Kickboxing is good

After a 3 months break, it's good to be back in kickboxing, I can really feel the oil inside me melting after an hour of non-stop kicks.

Ok, not exactly an hour non-stop, my 100% reduced to 80% after 20 mins, 60% after another 10 mins, and doing only 20% for the remaining. My instructor is like an energizer bunny kicking at gear 5, really powerhouse!!! We couldn't keep up with her speed and strength. Imagine throwing 3 moves in a second with the oil barrels attaching to my arms. Tiring!

But shiok! I felt less bloated already.

Looking forward to my next lesson!