Blog Block

I have a lot of thoughts when I'm in the office, but they all disappeared when I am in front of my laptop.

Finally, after 2 months, I have something constructive to do, but because free for 2 months, I can't really start the brain-gine, and because I wasted 2 months, I have zero idea what I should do.

Panick is my first name. Went to zap the ADA bible, hopefully I can help do some stuffs.

I realized I can't direct people and I need to be directed, shit, where's my leadership skill and initiative? My mind was just filled with question marks during discussion. Alamak.

2 Aries in this project, hopefully their charging nature can help us charge all the way. Chiong ah!

Scorpios scored again for being brainy, they really take in info like a sponge.

We got a Virgo, not exactly a perfect perfectionist, but I believe she has a never-say-die attitude.

I trust the Libras to ensure fair share of work among us. Ha ha.

Aquarius, which is me, shall be responsible for entertaining them. I'm quite a target board for jokes.

One certain zodiac totally reminds me of Roomie, die die must win arguments, so I zipped my mouth.

Deep down, I'm actually panicking. Yes I like doing nothing, but then it irks me and hate myself when I have no contribution to things need to be done. Seeing everyone has something to contribute but me, seriously, I don't envy myself.

Someway somehow, I learn not to take in seriously what people said, especially comfort words and compliments. Comfort words like "Good what, relax ah!" is adding poison to my heart. Compliments are like satay sticks dipped in chocolate, looked like innocent Pocky sticks until you eat and kill yourself.

I am slowly losing my trusting nature. I always think twice when people say this and that. I even consider whether they were just patronizing me or not. Maybe Jia is right, I think too much over nonsensical things le. But then, skeptisim is good someway somehow.

Haiz, real world sucks!