新年快乐！万事如意！心想事成！学业进步！祝我生日快乐!

Another 1 hour 45 minutes more, we will be welcoming Mr. Diligent Dog and send away Miss Chic Chicken, and I will be officially 22 years old! Yesh!!! Haiz...
So, a year into adulthood, well, I don't find my life changes much, or maybe a little in my appearance. Ever since I entered the pool of 21 year old , I tried to wear clothes that suit my age, and makes me look like my age. I'm controlling very hard not to buy those cute T-shirts, especially from 37 degrees, giordano "me" series and anything that makes me 15 years old or less. For a start, I try to wear more polo t-shirts, which makes me more or less mature, or so I thought, this attempt failed when my friend said why am I looking so gheena (childish in hokkien). Okie, I shall put makeup, but I find this task a little bit arduous coz, firstly, I'm not a morning person, my reactions in the morning are 50% slower than usual. I need to bath, change clothes, even if I pack my bag the night before, I only have time to put toner only, let alone basic foundation. I still have my breakfast to think about. Wake up earlier? Nah... Sacrifice my sleep over powder is definitely not a SQ thing I will do. So I really take my hat off to those girls who actually wear makeup to school. Secondly, who cares how I look like in school anyway? No boyfriend also, no need to look so nice, but I ever have one, I will definitely want to look nice for him, but not now. A guy friend of mine once asked me, "Why be the grass when you can choose to be the flower? Be a flower and you can attract attention mah!" Well, I want, but I'm lazy lah, so dressing up is really only on special occasion like wedding dinner, and maybe friends gathering, where I will try to utilize my makeup set.
Anyway, for now, I think is good that I looked younger than my real age in school now coz I can act cute without having to feel disgusted when hanging out with people who are younger than me, but I try to be serious when I'm with my classmates, who basically are 75% males, poly grads and finished their NS. So, while those '84 guys thought I'm '86, I think some tend to assume authority over us girls sometimes, you know, 倚老卖老. But I don't find this an issue in my class, where everyone is suppose to be mature. I'm not saying that those '86 are childish, but judging from age, we always think that we are older, so we are more mature. It's just like in primary school, when we are Pri. 1, we always think those Pri. 2 seniors have a lot more authority than us. Maybe I am the only one who thinks like that bah... am I?
Now, as a 22 year old individual, I realised I am taking a lot of responsibilities, maybe not as much as my sis, who is a lot more mature than me. Like I mentioned before, my mentality is 18 years old sometimes, ha ha, which explains the act cute. But one thing I know that I am a full grown adult and no longer a young adult, is that I no longer follow the "sit-on-the-floor" culture, i.e. on mrt, in malls, anywhere there's floor that looks hygenically enough to sit.

Anyway, no celebration for my birthday this year coz everyone is celebrating CNY, sounds a bit sad hor, but never, I still have next year! As for the surprise party I wish to see from my group of good frens, I realised if I expect it, then is not a surprise anymore, right? Therefore, I am apologetic that I had been such a stupid idoit expecting that from you people, if you do read my blog, sorry to Flower, YQ, Blur Queen and Milk Tea. I had sorted out my thoughts, and my resolutions for my birthday are: expect less, give more, be generous and helpful, no comparison of anythings, be truthful, stop being a mean mouth, keep my mouth shut at appropriate times, be hardworking, be disciplined, shall not be easily influenced, stay firm to my own stand, and be nice to everyone, but no compromise.

Anyway, today is a busy day, coz have to clean a lot of things in the house and prepare food for tomorrow's relatives' stomachs. Wanna look pretty and nice for my birthday tomorrow, although not going anywhere except godparents's house which is 2 bus stops away, I painted my nails with the recently bought nail polish and nail art stickers. But a really "WTF" happened, that is the enamel peeled off on 1 finger, in an attempt to redo, I had to remove the whole whole paint off, but I'm not a skillful artist that the alcohol cotton had actually tainted my other nails, fed up, I removed all 10 polish off my nails. Now, I'm also very tempted to remove all the polish off my toenails coz some were chipped off just after a few hours, shit... So much for trying to be vain. Redo later. :D

Halfway through my blogging, my mum told me about her accident when she was 16 which almost cost her life, which almost left her infertile. My sis knew this when she was around 10, amd I only knew it now. It was kind of astonishing to know this, that I almost wasn't born into this world. While I was feeling so perturbed, my "veli good sister" had to remind me that she had listened umpteen times, and the reason why I didn't know was I spent far too less time with Mum. Haiz... now I want to stay at home but I was given to "drcree" to stay at hostel instead so that I will not watch too muich tv. And while she saying how got a hunch buy 4D from the combination of my birthdate and age, she told me she knew my dad at 21, got married at 23, gave brith to me at 25. Eh, according to lunar calculation, I am 24 already, and not yet hitched. Sianz...

*15 more minutes to CNY 2006 and welcome my 1st annivesary of adulthood. :D

Astro gathering

We had an ex-astro hardcore members gathering just now, and of all, the main organiser actually overslept and missed this happy event. While she mass-smsed us to inform us that she wasn't coming, we tot we teased her by bombarding her back with smses at the same time, with exasperated comments like, "Wah Liew", "Tamade", "Wah Biangz" and all those cussing when people got pissed, you know? It is just a tiny joke, so no hard feeling hor, :). I had an even worse punishment for her, ha ha, that is to let her see the pics of the gathering. But alas! My digital camera was memoryless, i.e. there was not storage card! So we had used Rachel's phone to take pictures, but she got so hungry that she forgot to take pics of some other people. Ha ha, anyway, till I get the pics!

Little update for you, Long hair no longer wears oversize T-shirts and he wore his favourite colour, PURPLE (the joke, rememebr?), so dashing leh! Wah ha ha ha. Xiao B looks very feminine, HX looks way too mature with her hair and dressing leh, I find. Rachel had longer hair, and still as tone as before. Big eyes finally know how to cycle, Good Heart still as gheena. :D Update finished!

Looked at myself in the mirror, realised I looked like I'm 5 months pregnant, with that buldging belly. I cannot even see my waistline, only lumpy flesh and creases. Shit, I seriously have to start sweating and tone my muscles. With CNY coming, I think I will reach the peak weight again, wah!!! Thank god, I found a jogging and kickboxing partner, that should kick some fats away. I'm very eager to see myself in a toner shape siah, I'm so sick of my wieght fluctuates and my body inflate and deflate like a balloon.

Some friends commented that I do not looked like I'm 75kg, when I told them, they said I looked more like 65kg. Er... I'm am very bewildered, coz when I see myself, I think I am very "disgusting", with jelly arms that look almost like a baby, 2 tires around my waist, everything is so round, I seriously cannot imagine myself when I was at my heaviest, 85kg, I think I looked very very alike to a bulldog. I am so filled with fats that my eyelids drooped down and formed a layer below leh, and I could curl my eyelashes with just a few squints. Gross...

Been eating quite much these few days, which explain my 5 months belly. I have 4 days to squeeze them so that I can fit into my skirt. Erm... 3 days, today very tired, shall take a rest. Yawnz...

It's going to be hell in school after CNY, maybe I will shed more pounds due to stress. Hmm...

A letter to the Rat

I wanna sleep, but after reading your story, I had some much to say. As an engineer in training, I'm trained to get the massages across using the fastest way, in this case, in point forms, so I will not digress too much.

• 1st of all, I'm SORRY that I have been insensitive again to your sensitive topic
• 2ndly, based on my judgement, what I comment was truthful, I do not give patronising comments, especially to my friends.
• 3rdly, you should learn to be more confident of yourself, even though there are times I do have low esteems as well, but that's because I know where are my limits. Learn to accept comments gracefully, what's so paronoid about comments on your figure? You look very nice now.
• 4th, stop thinking about the past, and for God's sake, do not try to escape from reality! Mouths are theirs, but ears are yours, you can choose to ignore what they said.
• 5th, if you care so much about what they say, prove them wrong!
• 6th, any comments about your figure from me is harmless, I'm not those jealous girls who wanna make you feel bad. What for when I am fatter than you, bigger size than you, of course you looked slim to me, especially when you are wearing size M, and I'm size XL. Duhz... see the diff? One size is about 5-10kg diff, so I know how much you weigh even if do not know yourself.
• 7th, I have been trying to lose weight since 7 years old, so don't try to argue that "Oh, you also lost weight what..." and blah blah blah to counter-attack my comments about your size, I know where is my ideal weight and YOURS too. I'm a weight-loss guru, a lousy one tho.
• 8th, you dare to dress up, you dare to speak up, but why don't you dare to see the real you? YOU ARE INDEED NOT VERY FAT WHAT!!!
• 9th, stop dwelling in the past! (this is to REMIND you again!)
• 10th, I hate to point this out, but FYI, mice means more than 1 mouse, you use the wrong word, dear. BTW, I would have prefer Piggy Pink.

Okie, good night... ZZZzzzZZZ *drools*

P/S: I will stop commenting about your figure! :( , (>_<)

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Hall 9 Megafest 2006

My hall is having a Megafest on the 25th January 2006, 7pm at the carpark. There will be food and games, tolong tolong support me lah, if not I have to absorb the 4 tickets myself and that's like $20. A lot leh, considering I will be a helper, no chance for me to use it. I have 4 tickets, so please buy from me lah, especially those staying near me and had night class in school. Can pop by over mah... SMS me, k?

Knowing what we want

I read Jia's post on her birthday, glad that she had such a wonderful birthday memories, and I am very glad that she liked what I buy for her, coz I think this is this is the first time I buy something without her knowledge and she liked it somemore. I used to buy things she didn't like or, I had asked her.

Recently, I've been having dreams about having a birthday celebration, and the people were Flower they all. It seems like I am really hoping that they will throw a surprise party for me, coz Flower had already asked when is my birthday and it's like less than 2 weeks, yet I don't hear anything from them. Maybe the more I yearn for, the more it won't fufil bah. It has always been like that, whatever I wanted the things to turn out, it will become otherwise. The previous entries about my birthdays were blog out of impluse, but yet it was what I was really hoping for. But after thinking, I realised why should I expect them to this just because they had asked me for my birthday and I had participated in the previous bashes? Does that mean I had joined so that I hope they will do the same to me? Doesn't that makes me insincere in celebrating their birthdays? Then I might as well use the money to spend on myself right? Or maybe I expect a return because I gave so much for my friends...

Before this, I gave treats coz I knew I would receive presents, never mind if the presents cost lower than the amout of what I treated, I just love the feeling of receiving presents and connecting with my friends during party. Slowly, as we started to have class birthday parties, I started to compare the prices. Irritating as I find myself doing this, I can't help it for I realise I am giving more than I received. Grr... I don't wish to compare either, but sometimes just can't help wondering why the rest had such nice treatment while mine is like shabby? I really hate myself to think like that.

Therefore, I want to remind myself with this entry, that I shall not compare presents anymore, I shall not compromise myself to attend a birthday party which I do not want to go just to hope for a return favour, I shall not expect things from people, anymore. It's better to get the things I want myself.

3 guys and a lady

Imagine this scenario: 3 guys and a girl were being grouped together for an assignment discussion, which after that one of them had to go out and write the outome of their discussions. The gal had contributed a sentence, while the guys were still discussing. Who do u think will be sent out to write? The girl, why? Coz birds of the same feather flew together.

I was being sabotaged this morning during a tutorial, just because I merely said one sentence. Maybe it wasn't really a sabo, but still, didn't feel too good to write my answer on the board. Last time when I was working, during a training session, I was also sabotaged by the guys to do the writing. Duhz... Anyway, supposed to do a project with these 3 guys, now I had jumped over to another group, all guys too, but at least I know 2 of them from my past tutorials.

This is so sickening, just when I want to do my laundry, it rains. Kaoz... But then, now weather is so cooling, it's best for nap, but I washed my bedsheet. It rain at the wrong time lah...

This teach me not to be a silly dumb dumb

So paiseh!!! Today, KCQ and I chilled at a bench outside lecture hall, trying to do tutorials. Sensing that both of us were going to dreamland, I offered to buy coffee for both of us. KCQ wanted to give me 55 cents coz she thought I would buy the lids for the cup, but I haolian to her that my skills very good, could carry the cups up from B4 to B1 without spill and thus saved the 5 cents. So off I went to buy the drinks. Seriously, there is lift in school mah, so 3 levels sure no problem, no spill I thought. With a cup in each hand, I walked steadily to the lift, a lot of people, but nair mind, I thought, I just be the last one to go in lor. Wrong move, at B3, an asshole came in and stood beside me. Shit, later people wanted to move their asses out how? So I was concentrating on the 2 cups, which the aroma was tempting everyone in the lift. When we reached B2, that asshole... He was getting out of the lift, but I don't know how he had bumped into me, shit!!! A little coffee spilled out and happened to hit on the girl next to me, so paiseh!!! I kept apologizing to her, and I could sense the smirks and laughters and sneer from the people behind me. Grr... my tactic would have been perfect if I had took the lift alone, which I wanted to, but because I saw there was still a space for me and a guy whom I had a little crush was inside too :P :P, so I squeezed in. Duhz... should have trust my instinct. I got off at B1 and complained to KCQ about that idoit. However, KCQ was more concerned whether I scalded my hand or not coz the coffee looked hot, steam coming out... and it dawned on me that the people in the lift just now might be thinking the same thing, so I guessed I was a bit oversensitive due to the embarassment that I thought they were sneering at me for being a stingy (to save 5 cents and not buy the lid). Anyway, this taught me not to be a smart ass next time. Kaoz... that stupid asshole, walked also dunno how to walked properly. Grr...

Horoscopes

I was cleaning my house today, coz after one month, dust is building up, and I have not clean my TV console yet. Anyway, after a nap, I went to read newspaper and my chinese hororscope says, "把家里打扫一番， 让它和你一样清新可人，运气更佳。" （Badly translated: Clean your house like is as fresh as you, better luck will come.）So freaky conincidental hor! Then then, I went to check on my english horoscope, it says, "Lately, I have been not be very punctual. I better stop this bad habit before people starts to have bad impression of me. Lucky colour: Green (Green again!) Lucky item: Items made from silver". I was particular about the green thing, realised how often I was mentioning green these few days?

Suppose to do tutorials, but at home, I just don't have the motivation leh.. I am only motivated to clean my house niah... Anyway, this CNY I did not make any lanterns (I usually started one month before), a bit weird... Think I make simple simple one next week. Ha ha... So muct come home again. Wanted to stay in hostel and clean my room, but seems like I shall do that after CNY liao... At first we thought we wont't be celebrating CNY coz of grandma's death, but now we can, dunno whythe sudden change. Anyway, CNY is the only time I will become a super duper vainpot and buy all sorts of clthings which I might not even wear, LOL. Must change must change... must learn to wear those clothes, if not buy liao wasteful hor... hee hee... :P

Deja Vu

I was very embarrassed yesterday, for I fainted during lab lesson. Yah I know, this is something we can't control, but still, it was so awkward when I returned to class later and continued my lab. It was only the 1st lab and I think I scared my partner off. LOL. Anyway, I felt that studying in Uni is just like returning back to secondary school: failing subjects, can't make out what the teachers were teaching, self study also like half bucket, friends were all smarter than me, I'm the worst of the worst etc... :( As if it wasn't coincidental enough, the last time I fainted was in secondary school, and during a lab too!!!! Oh man, this is freaky... It is just like a repeat cycle of my secondary school life.

As for the reason why I fainted, could be because breakfast wasn't enough (only 2 oreo biscuits) , then when we were told to crowd around the table to see demo, plus the bad air circulation, I suddenly felt nauseous, dizzy, everything was spinning and I kept yawning to gasp for oxygen, then my whole body just went limp. I flopped on the bench, and before I could hold myself, I blacked out and thumped on the table. But I thought I still heard my prof speaking some lab details, before she came to ask me how am I. Wah, I must say I was quite impressed with myself that I was still conscious and told her I need some fresh air that's all... Where got people faint and yet still tell people what to do de har? Anyway, when she and another guy helped me out of the lab, They put me near the wall railing (and luckily I did not lean over the railing if not you won't be reading this entry), and both went back to the lab to get a chair for me... My body was still weak and I just limp on the floor. When they came back with a chair, they just to pull me onto it, but I was just so weak that I could not get up. And that guy who helped the prof was saying how my face did not have any blood colour, which I thought he meant I looked pale. After a few minutes, I felt better and went to washroom to wash my face, I thought I was seeing things: my face was green.. YIKES! I am so greeny these few days.... LOL.

Anyway, later in the evening, I was able to go shopping with my "twin", so I think I had fainted could be due to busy with the IH, did not get enough sleep for a few days, plus on thurs I had went to sleep on an empty stomach (had early dinner and by the time I went to sleep at 2.30am, stomach was growling and I did not eat my biscuits which I had intended to), that's why I was weak. I'm not kind to faint easily. Anyway, Twin scolded me for not taking care of myself.... :P So touched...

When I was relating the story to Jia, she asked if anyone asked about me. I replied only my lab partner and prof asked. Then she exclaimed, "Aiyer, how come other people never bother one?" I told her a very unrelated answer, "Lab more important mah, so they busy with their lab lor."

Anyway, as I write this, it dawned on me that it doesn't take much to ask how was I, so I think the people were rather very cool. But, not that they are cold-blooded, but in our situation when every semester we will meet different people, we are just acquaintances which most prob next sem, we will act like we dunno each other. Worse than a hi-and-bye. True? Now I only nod head and say hi to people whom I talked more to them during last sem, so sad... I onlyhave like only 4 contacts from last year's tutorial group. So my point is, to many of us, we might not see each other anymore, so basically, we are just like strangers. Therefore, no one asked me how was I except my lab partner coz she suppose to be my partner for the lab, cannot act like nothing happened mah, and my prof, coz she's a "Biggest Shot" in the lab.

Just now was watching a super old-school Hong Kong movie, it was a modified version of Street Fighters. Wah lau, Aaron Kwok, Andy Lau, Jacky Cheung, Simon Yam, Ekin Cheng, all so young lor!!! But weirdly enough, I was glued to watching it despite being a 10 year old film (1993 production). I really admired Jia's wittiness, she said, "Can't believe that Jamie actually had the chance to watch a movie that we once watched when we were her age." So true hor! Anyway, we had fun dubbing "Ayogen!Ayogen!" when the bad Ryu was fighting with Broomhead (dunno his name), machiam like playing the game like that. Hee... hee... childhood memories.

Sis's big day is coming

Sis is turning 21 this Saturday, she hinted she wanted Sidney Sheldon's book, but I can't remember the name. How? Eh, you want nail polish mah? Cannot say no also coz I already buy liao. :P

My school had this charity bazaar and the stuffs came from Seiyu, they were so cheap!!!!! Alas, I could only look at them, coz their clothes sizes were too small, bags I have a lot, CD casings no use, shoe design so-so, bikini... don't dare to buy in front of so many schoolmates although they don't know me, pencil box design orhbeet, wallets no nice one, handbags too cheena and I had those too. So in the end, I got 2 box of Fasio nail polishs, which came in 2 per box, at a freaking price of $12.40! I had one which cost me $7 or $8 last time. Hee hee, I know I seldom do nail polish, but for a change mah, that old one so long liao, dunno spoil already or not. Hah... The 2 boxes of nail polishs' colour only have 2, pink and brown/gold, shiny and glitter kind. Hmm, just nice, Jia likes brown and I think the colour suits her also.

Talking about colours, recently, colour therapy is very popular. It use colours to fix ur mind like too stress, too gloomy etc. Recently, I seem to like this green (new bra and cardigan were of this colour), and I happened to read up a little on the colour therapy. It says, green represent life, meaning if you choose green or like green, you are accepting a new life into you or you are changing for a new life blah blah blah. Hmm... Where am I changed? Prettier (Ha Ha)? Or Mentally? Shall check up more... when I'm free.

Bump into an old secondary classmate in canteen today, wah, so damn excited! Meeting her for lunch next Thursday. We exchanged some words and she said I changed a lot, I replied, "Where got? I still as cute as before..." Ha ha, I am so thick skinned. Think the lady behind me was trying not to puke, :P.

Overload...

Oh my god, I have so many things on my hands now:

1. Colour Awards Board Nominees, suppose to submit last 10 Jan 2006
2. Eye appointment checkup on Sat, provided I remember to fix one
3. Meet up wih LH
4. DIP project grouping, at least 12 people and we formed our own leh, I don't know so many friends in my course... :(
5. Astronomy project grouping. Prof had grouped us and we have to contact each other, sianz, new people means there will be some ice-breaking to be done
6. Tutorials! I'm suppose to be hardworking and a library regular!
7. Tech-Comm project and tutorials, it's all about self study and I seriously need some time management
8. Home PC needs to be under observation, just newly set up and installed (no more virus please!) Mum complained Mahjong cannot play...
9. My table is dusty...
10. I need to iron my T-shirts, they have been creasy since last December! And wash my clothes and bedsheets, but it has been raining and I have no time!

Help help help! I'm being deprived of sleep! Yawnz...

Very angry and pissed off...

because my PC is not working! Kanna virus, keep hanging, SP2 forbid me to log into my school's website, install, forgot to format, virus still inside, reinstall.. argh!!!!!!

What age do u act?

It's freaky, I was telling Jia a few weeks ago that I felt like an 18 years old sometimes, so it really is.

You Are 19 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

I like this test, and I think the answer will differ to different color. LOL.

What Your Underwear Says About You

You like to think of yourself as innocent, even though you're not! You're a closet exhibitionist who gets a thrill from being secretly naughty.

The Underwear Oracle

Beautiful Sunday

I sort of recalled some love stories, it would always start with "On a beautiful Sunday..." But today is not beautiful at all, it has been pouring rain since 5am, holy shit! Erm... maybe for those who loves rain, maybe it's beautiful to them.

Anyway, I met up with an old schoolmate of mine, upon counting, we had not seen each other for about 5 years, excluding the occasional bumps in Northpoint which happens once every 2 years or 3 (so the probability of bumping a friend living in the same area is that slim). It was really nice to catch up with him, talked about the past, got to know what happening to other classmates etc. I just realised, he wasn't what I thought in the past, I guessed it could be because in the past, I never really try to understand my friends. Hmm... I think I bloom rather late then. Friendship isn't as simple we had thought as we grow older. At my age, we already see things differently, during our conversation, we touched a lot on fufilling our goals, knowing what to do, what we want, and how unexpectedly life had turned out for us quite differently as compared to what we had thought when we were in secondary. In secondary, it was more or less a life journey starting, to what we want in life later. So people choose to go JC if they want to pursue a degree later, or people go poly if they felt that they are just not the study-type. We thought life was planned this way, JC must go Uni, die die no matter what, then people who went poly surely will be either working or study, which didn't occure to many of us. As we chatted, we realise many of us were not following the planned thing. Like those from 4/4 (the supposed best class in secondary), after JC, many of them went to pursue a diploma in therapy in NYP. As for my class, the combination we took at that time wasn't really meant to let us go JC, but for those who still went on to take A'level, few of them did not do as well, from what I heard from him. It seems that those who went poly ended better than them. I'm not trying to compare that going poly is better for those who can't make it, but more or less, sometimes it's not really good to work against the society's norm, but I think, everything just happen for a reason and there's no explanation. Most importantly, is how we will pass through these obstacles.

Just like I had expected him to go Uni, he rejected the offer and became a track and field coach instead. At least he knew what he is doing and doesn't feel that he is missing out anything. He felt that there was no need to have a degree as backup if he knew what he wanted to do and he will succeed. I "cursed" him even if he failed at least he would not regret, which immediately I added a "Touchwood! Touchwood!". I'm not belittling his potential and of course I do not want him to fail, I admire his faith, but I'm just not good in words and that was a good example on how I am bad in encouraging peopl, ha ha. What I mean is he had followed his dream, and if it turns out to be a bad dream after all, at least he had enjoyed what he likes.

It was still raining when I was supposed to go out, usually I would just cancel the appointment with my friends, but this time it was an exception coz firstly, we were meeting in our neighbourhood and secondly, it's been so long since we last met, very rude and insincere to cancel it just because of the rain. Mum was like discouraging me to go, but when she knew I was meeting a guy, she said, "Go lah! Go lah!". Come on, I'm only 22, is there such a hurry to get me attached? When I came back home, she asked where he lived. I replied XXX block number, very near us and she joked, "Good, next time walk there can liao." (She mean when the groom went to fetch the bride and return back, duhz!!!) Oh man! Just a normal guy fren and she think so much into it. Like what my horoscope says today, "有缘千里来相会, 无缘对面不相见, 随缘吧!"

It's friday!!!

Oh man... this is such a boring week... I am so used to doing nothing during the hols, suddenly I realised school work is eating up my time... argh!!!

Anyone heard of Be'lair? It is a partial network market, partial entrepreneur company. My ICQ friend, Jenny, was trying to rope me in. Sianz... I hate this, I was trying very hard to "taichi" her stances on me. Hmm... I am really skeptical over such MLM stuffs.

I am so bored now that I am watching 水浒传, and it's the story on the pretty and slutty Pan Jilian, honest but ugly Wu Da Lang, big built and dashing Wu Song and villian Ximen Qing. That Jilian is really a slut, she fantasize over Wu Song, she lust over Ximen Qing, gross. She was a virtuous wife, but when she saw Wu Song,wah.... become very slutty after that. On the pretext of making new clothes for Wu Song, she used her hand to measure his body, also "molesting" him at the same time, wah ha ha. She almost drooled when she saw his naked body, lol. Dunno why, I suddenly find this show very interesting.

For 2006, I had a new record, that is I actually wore skirts, and it is within 2 times in a week leh! When you since see me wear skirt so often har? LOL. But that day during gathering, as usual, Flower was telling me that "I should do this.. I should do that..." Why the I should? Shouldn't I be the one deciding what is best for myself? There she was telling me I should wear more sleeveless, put on more makeup, wear more skirts blah blah blah.. Hello! I am not a barbie doll hor, why should I dress like what you say? If I find sleeveless uncomfortable, why should I force myself to wear? I don't have such a big gut to show off my fat arms, I need things to hide my arms. And yah lah, relatives were patronising me how much I changed. Duhz... always asked the same old things.

I am somewhat disappointed with Flower. Remember I had an old entry on surprise birthdays? Flower had asked me when is my brithday. I am so sad, she did not bother to ask other people for it but asked me. I think I am hard to please, but how can I not to when we spend so much effort to find out someone else's birthday, then plan it, and celebrate. By asking me, really, I just feel that it's just another gathering lor, but just want to make it like "you see, we help u celebrate birthday leh, wu xim hor". No?

I am so sick

Sianz... today is the first day of school only and I'm down with sore throat, and this morning when I visited doctor, I was still fine except for the itchiness. Argh...no voice!

First week usually is very boring de, no tutorials, no labs, just lectures. I pon my repeat module today (actually I was late and I did not have my lecture notes with me) and went out with my friend to Jurong Point. Didn't get any ration for the week, coz NTUC long queue, very very long queue. Got one Prima Deli waffle for dinner only. Boring day...

My Chinese Horoscope said I'll be prone to illness in 2006, how true!